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okay so here's the thing. i haven't eaten in 6 days basically because i ran out of food, and i'm in the middle of nowhere right now, i dont have a car (dont have a license anyways) so its not like i can go to the store. in two 1/2 to 4 days i will get food delivered. so i won't have any food for that much longer and in total will have gone without food for a week to 9 days or so, and i feel very sick and have no energy, and feel faint and dizzy whenever i even stand up so i can't do anything. even laying down i feel sick and tired. my only calories i'm getting are from a little sweeter in tea (and only like 200 cals a day. feel better for a couple hours after when i have that, keeps me holding on a bit) and i lowkey want to really eat rn. so i could get food before that if i ask my once removed aunt that is also staying where i'm to buy me a couple things so i can function a bit lol but that's only if she goes to the store for herself in those 2-4 days, and i really dont want to ask her because our relationship is weird and i think she might secretley hate me, also the aunt doesn't like buying me food unless my mom reimburses her qucikly and my mom isn't here so its not possible but she would still do it if she knew i have nothing or at least give me some of her food. though i really want to eat and stuff but also i want to lose some weight and i've already lost 2 bmi points (i was and am in the healthy bmi by the way) and look visibly skinnier :) and i was trying to lose weight anyway and failing, so i'm forced to lose weight now and i think if i keep this going it will help me continue when i get food. also its only 2-4 more days and i'll enjoy more the food when it gets here. but i'm also sick, exhausted and have fainted already. and it will get worse. so what should i do?