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Going to be extremely vulnerable here---

I just found out that I have to get a hysterectomy (removing my ovaries) done because I have stage 4 endometriosis (the most severe type). My entire uterus has scar tissue upon scar tissue. I'm still in my 20s. I haven't found my forever partner, still a virgin. 3 doctors now have advised me to get it done so it won't spread to my lungs or liver or cause them to remove my bowels all together too.

I know it will be for the best. But im scared that when I do get a boyfriend, he will be disappointed he won't be able to see my growing belly, or rub my belly and he might view me less of a woman. I'm really at a cross road here. Its extremely uncommon for a woman in their 20s with no children to have one.

The only positive I see is that I won't have a period anymore, but I feel like a freak and I will be at the mercy of someone else to carry my child and what if I say something one day they don't like and they take it out on the baby? this is something that worries me. Can I please get insight from the girls AND guys on this one

My first REAL crush in my teens was a guy a little older than me. He was confident funny, not the best looking but I liked him loads. He liked me too and I had my first sexual experience with him. There was chemistry there. Due to the age differences my parents got someone to warn him to keep away from me, I only found this out a few years ago! He was only 3 years older but he was from a bit of a rough part of town.. he was a decent guy from what I knew about him. At the time he just stopped taking an interest and I was literally heart broken. I didn’t even know why.

Today I randomly sent him a song that reminded me of him and we talked briefly. we maybe speak once a year if that. But this time he told me that he had actually really liked me all those years ago and when he discovered I’d met someone else he was jealous. He said he found it hard to be around me knowing he couldn’t do anything. I just thought he’d gone off me! He’s married with 2 kids now but I’m just shocked he’s told me this now.. out of the blue. What does it mean? He seems really sincere. I do still think about him at times.