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You know when you just have a gut feeling? I’ve been on and off the dating apps for years, it’s come to the point where I’m not as interested & I swipe on matches/reply to msgs every few days or every other day. Dating apps are the only way I’ve tried dating as I dont have a social life but dating apps have been successful for quite a few people I know. I’ve never had a real relationship, I saw someone for a few months maybe 5 years ago & something told me after I saw him that’d I’d be single for a long time. With him it felt like settling & I refuse to ever be with someone that made me feel like that again.

I had to use dating apps bc I’m not very friendly & I don’t get approached in person. I’m told I’m cute/attractive & I will say I have a very low sex drive (haven’t masturbated or had sex in 5 years). I don’t think this is a huge deal considering this isn’t something that will be an issue that early on, a guy can’t just look at my profile/see me in person & know that right off the bat.

I get matches (never been the issue) but it’s always: ghosting, fizzling out, lack of interest (can go both ways), feelings not reciprocated, just not a good match & some guys are just crazy. A lot of the time, I expect the guy to be a certain way from their profile & I just get disappointed because they’re so different even though they didn’t catfish me, am I being unrealistic? I just always have a gnawing feeling like guys aren’t attracted to me, I’d get told once in a while that some guy looked at me/found me cute but they never do anything about it (it’s always word of mouth).

Maybe this is an irrelevant comparison but I mean I can do everything in my life but find a LTR with a man like buy property, get decent jobs etc but what gives? I’m told I’m attractive but being pretty much 30…I can’t help but believe it really is bad luck.

I had a weird experience with a masseuse recently. First, she was located inside some large warehouse in a remote location that was locked. It made me nervous so I called her and she assured me she had a room in the warehouse and liked to keep the building locked between clients. Second, she gave me this tiny see through underwear and bra which showed everything and kept making things pop out and show. Third, she didn’t cover me with anything when massaging. When I asked her to incorporate wood sculpting, it was clear she didn't know what she was doing and it left bruising that didn't go away for weeks.

Plus, she focused too much on my hips and butt. Fourth, and this is the weirdest, she had me get up and walk to her so she could massage me standing up because she said something like people look different at various angles? And then she also charged me way more than a normal session and blew up when i said I called it out and said i would not be returning. Is any of this normal? This is my first time getting a lymphatic massage and I dont know what general best practices are but i feel kind of sick to my stomach and it just feels like something wasn't quite right. But i did check her reviews and she eerily has a ton of 5 star glowing reviews..