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I am 28, and I have had horrid luck with women my entire life. I have never had a real girlfriend before, and I have only had sex with one girl my entire life during a weekend fling/hookup over 7 and a half years ago. She was 16; I was 20. Both virgins at the time supposedly. She didn't want anything to do with me romantically after that weekend, and she was really a stranger I drove across state lines to meet.

The thing is, I am short in height at 5'6, on the Autistic Spectrum (Aspergers), and have a lot of social deficits. I still live at home and recently lost my decently-paying job. My normally homeless friend has better luck with women than I do.

I am really wanting a woman that has never had a romantic bond with another guy before, meaning no previous boyfriends or even a first love. I don't know if I will ever find that, and I may end up alone the rest of my life. I do like younger women a lot more, but I may be too old at this point. I feel may be lucky to even find a woman that has never been married or never had kids before, which I may be stuck with single moms and divorced women at some point.

I have an opportunity to marry a younger woman who has an excellent personality and is a very hard worker. We have been friends with for a few years now. It was her idea is purely for economical reasons. It would benefit us both.

But I am not in love with her and she knows that. She said she doesn’t care if I date and sleep with other people. This would be a paper marriage.

I have gotten advice for a few trusted people about this. All but one person said it’s a bad idea. I am leaning towards no myself but besides the economical arrangement a part of me wonders if I’ll ever find an ideal partner given my age.

Ever since I hit 36 (in my early 40s now) my dating life has been hell on earth trying to find a truly decent woman I feel attracted to. I have had a few flings with attractive women who would make horrible wives. I tried dating a girl who i felt so so about physically just for her personality. That slowly got agonizing. I ended up breaking up with her and that ended very badly (she went psycho).

However of me just WANTS this life milestone. But I don’t want to be an adulterer. Even though she understands I might date other woman I do have spiritual beliefs. Oddly the Bible doesn’t say anything direct about premarital sex (but it heavily implied that’s not alright). But it is VERY clear about adultery. I wouldn’t feel comfortable cheating on my wife. Even if it really is a paper marriage and it doesn’t sit well with me.