I’m in need of some advice.
So there’s this guy….
We’ve worked together about 3 years now. We’ve had days of long back and forth messaging late into the night. We get into flirtation on occasion and our infatuation has grown enough to physically get involved. I’m standing on the edge of a cliff here.
He’s everything I’ve ever dreamed of. Home in the country. Big truck, tractors, dogs, farm animals, works in my field of work, tall, handsome, has his own company, the list goes on.
I’ve known he’s not someone I could have. Until the other day. It was late in the evening, I gave him a hand with his work, running on taillight. We finish up and are standing there, staring at each other. He pulls me in for a hug thanking me for the help. Now this hug lasted… for what felt like an eternity. I knew right then I should leave. The feeling of his body on mine drove me further than it should have. But not in the way it has in the past. I was calm and it was serene. It was time to go. Our hug breaks. I look up at him, his eyes saying more than I can take. He kisses me, and everything else falls away. His hands all over my body, the way he touched me, the way he aroused my whole body. After almost an hour, almost getting caught by others using the facility and security, it was time to go. He wants this to be platonic, I said I can keep it that way.
We haven’t spoken since, besides a brief work related message.
I can’t stop thinking about him. I get chills thinking about it. I don’t know if I can keep it platonic. Do I fake it and keep seeing him? Do I tell him I can’t do this? I’ve never been so overwhelmed with emotion after the fact. With him I was so calm, and now I’m imagining the next time I see him. Imagining images of a future that may never exist. I realize this may just be the female part of me, but I’ve had flings, and moments and been able to separate the act and the emotion. I know how to keep it platonic, but for some reason with him I don’t think I can.
So there’s this guy….
We’ve worked together about 3 years now. We’ve had days of long back and forth messaging late into the night. We get into flirtation on occasion and our infatuation has grown enough to physically get involved. I’m standing on the edge of a cliff here.
He’s everything I’ve ever dreamed of. Home in the country. Big truck, tractors, dogs, farm animals, works in my field of work, tall, handsome, has his own company, the list goes on.
I’ve known he’s not someone I could have. Until the other day. It was late in the evening, I gave him a hand with his work, running on taillight. We finish up and are standing there, staring at each other. He pulls me in for a hug thanking me for the help. Now this hug lasted… for what felt like an eternity. I knew right then I should leave. The feeling of his body on mine drove me further than it should have. But not in the way it has in the past. I was calm and it was serene. It was time to go. Our hug breaks. I look up at him, his eyes saying more than I can take. He kisses me, and everything else falls away. His hands all over my body, the way he touched me, the way he aroused my whole body. After almost an hour, almost getting caught by others using the facility and security, it was time to go. He wants this to be platonic, I said I can keep it that way.
We haven’t spoken since, besides a brief work related message.
I can’t stop thinking about him. I get chills thinking about it. I don’t know if I can keep it platonic. Do I fake it and keep seeing him? Do I tell him I can’t do this? I’ve never been so overwhelmed with emotion after the fact. With him I was so calm, and now I’m imagining the next time I see him. Imagining images of a future that may never exist. I realize this may just be the female part of me, but I’ve had flings, and moments and been able to separate the act and the emotion. I know how to keep it platonic, but for some reason with him I don’t think I can.
