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I No Longer Feel Connected To Conservatives In America

I feel embarrassed to be a conservative in this day and age in this joke of a country. My parents claim to be "independents" meaning they're not affiliated with either liberal or conservative ideology. I consider myself to be a conservative (paleocon, even), and I still see myself as less right-wing than either of my so-called "centrist" parents. I don't support Donald Trump, but I do support Ron DeSantis, Dr. David Friedman (yes, this guy), and I occasionally agree with Tucker Carlson, most particularly on his economic viewpoints though not on his obviously-bizarre viewpoints on race.

I am a conservative who feels pretty liberal compared to my supposedly "moderate" mother and stepfather. I feel almost completely left out of my ideology because of my family. I am still in the process of building a new ideology based on paleoconservatism with a mix of intersectional social justice progressivism.

(C) Disinherited
(C) Disinherited

I have constantly complained to my father about how awfully toxic, manipulative, and censoring my mother and stepfather are toward my preteen brother. My stepfather is his son's own worst enemy. My stepfather was the one who put hands on me at age 15 and my mother literally supported his bizarre behavior. He is mentally insane and should not be a parent. For some reason I am not allowed to call him out or call my mother out for enabling his dangerous attitudes. My stepfather usually has no filter and blurts out subtley homophobic and transphobic remarks. My father wants me to just "let it slide" because "every parent is different", and that is his excuse for enabling my other parents' behavior. My father, stepmother and stepfather all voted for Trump, and unfortunately, so did I. My mother, I'm not too sure about who she voted for, although she did say she didn't like most of Trump's remarks or actions and that she is pro-choice (SHE may have lowkey voted for Joe Biden).

It's rare that, even as a self-described paleoconservative (basically an anti-Bush and anti-Reagan type), I feel just as left-wing as Joe Biden, Joe Manchin, Hillary Clinton, Kyrsten Sinema, Andrew Yang, and Tulsi Gabbard--all resembling the "non-leftist"-wing of the Democratic Party. I highly despise Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez and Tulsi Gabbard for being war criminals; AOC is a racist and classist grifter who backs Shaun King, Gabbard is a blatant homophobe and transphobe who backs Tucker Carlson, and both are apart of the Marxist (Bernie) Sanders Institute.

My stepfather has comfortably preferred Russia to China, attempted to censor my brother for talking about Russia and Ukraine (claiming he is too young to be worried about this stuff) and even bizarrely claimed that there was no nuke in process. My stepfather and my mother yell at him constantly when he is asking for money to spend on his own games, I even hear name-calling once in a while. I feel like my mother and especially my stepfather are way different from the other parents I talk to; my father explained to me that "every parent is different".

My mother thinks that politics has gotten me into trouble. I have gotten in trouble with my college for the bizarre remarks I have made. But it wasn't politics directly, more than the bad, "dark" websites I browsed on that radicalized me.

I am banned from using Gab and 4chan (and haven't even used them in months to come), but my stepfather used to follow Breitbart all the time, and I think that is way worse than either of the websites I had been on.

I No Longer Feel Connected To Conservatives In America
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