Do people think Asians are nasty? like in a unattractive way?

I’m half Japanese and I really hate how I look, I think white blonde girls with this big dolly’s are the best and Asians can’t never beat that.
I just feel like Asians can’t never be better than white people and always be the last choice.
I just really want to kill my self cause I hate being Asian and feel so unfair that pretty white people gets treated better even how much make up I put on and had a better life.
I want opinions on if my thought are facts
Do people think Asians are nasty? like in a unattractive way?
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