I'm at peace with myself.
The good, the bad and more often than not the Silly sides to me all work in tandem. I still have my off days but being single allows me to calm down at my own pace without hurting any loved ones.
My Time Is My Own.
So often in life we get pulled in too many directions at once. School, Work, Bills, Family and Significant Others can all increase our stress levels and force us to choose between dealing with them or getting some much needed alone time. I usually enjoy my alone time the most when I can color on my own, eat junk food unashamed or just strut around naked if I so choose.
Women Aren't As Tempting Any More.
A strange thing happened to me on the way to turning 32 years old, I suddenly saw Women differently. It used to be that all I saw in them was Sex. A relationship with them just increased the odds of having it more often. Yet now I see the beauty in all of them. Not a sexual beauty but the natural inherent beauty they all display.
The easiest way to explain it would be to picture yourself walking through the same forest day after day. You enjoy the sights and sounds but you only experience it as one big beautiful forest. Then one day a small glimmer of light shines through the canopy, as if to highlight one tree. You stop, you see how the roots hug the grass and the dirt. You see the cracks and ridges in the bark. How the branches contort to reach the light, how the Tree itself sways with the breeze and how the unique patterns in the leaves soak up the morning dew. Then you start to notice all the Trees and wonder why you wanted to uproot them at all. Being single allows me to linger at that beauty while mentally hugging each and every new Tree I see.
And Lastly... I've Had My Time.
I got to Love and be Loved by the Greatest Woman I've ever known! Our time together on this Earth was short but she showed me that "Love" isn't just an empty four letter word. To pit another woman against her memory is just absurd to me. But Love IS out there and it's real just waiting for you to get ready. And the best way to do that is to Find Yourself. Find your True self first, be happy with that person in the mirror. Once you do that Love will hit you like waves hit the shore.