I have a crush on a guy who is my friend and he admitted tonight that he is starting to crush on me (I told him after lots of years being friends that I liked him and he said that he loves everything about me and wanted to wait if he felt the same way I did) so after He admitted that I said that I still like him and he said he was glad I still do so then I asked him what he was up to and he said "I would suck a fart outta that a** and hold it like a bong hit" now before I say anything else, he isn't dirty and is completely opposed to sex and nudes (he wasn't lying). So continuing on I said what? And he typed it in again and I said whats that supposed to mean? and he said are you blind? Read it and thats when I started crying and getting upset cause I felt like I was stupid when he saod that (I was bullied in 7th grade for having mental disabilities which made me feel stupid and also I have to start wearing glasses along with braces and I was upset about that for days till I got over it but when he asked if I was blind I just thought about it again and felt hurt cause I'm afraid everyone including him will Think I look ugly for having braces and glasses so I told him to please stop saying that and I told him I was crying and I told him why including about me being bullied back then and how stupid and Ugly I feel all the sudden from crying and he said no no no you are beautiful and smart and then I said why did you say that to me I thought you said you were starting to have a crush on me and he didn't answer my question and said I do have a crush on you why are you crying then I said why did you ask if I was blind I can't stop crying now because I feel so stupid and ugly and thats when I stopped texting him and he asked why I was crying and what did he do wrong but I just can't talk to him I just feel stupid and can't stop crying I don't know what to do I can't think or stop crying.
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Continuing on we're both 18 and live far away from each other ever since a year ago and please don't judge me about it. I just feel so upset I can't even think. So what should I do?
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