Over the summer I had an online boyfriend. Within such short time I really started falling for him and he was basically my happiness. I've been a lonely person throughout my life and when I met him I did not feel alone anymore. We spoke everyday till 5 am and those few months were nothing but happy. I had just graduated high school and I am currently on a gap year before starting university. In fact we were very long term already and as childish as it may seem we talked about living together in the future and getting married and spending the rest of our lives with each other and he seemed so sure that was what he wanted.
We went on like this just making each other happy and he told me he told me he never wanted to leave me. I knew he was going to University very soon and I was very excited and so was he, we talked about it a lot and what both of us wanted to study. However, after his first day at university he just stopped talking to me, I asked him if I had done anything wrong and begged him not to push me away but he was still extremely stubborn. I decided to give him space and dropped contact for 5 days. I did not message him nor bother him even though I felt so much pain in that period of time. After the 5th day I could not take it anymore and begged him for an explanation.
He said this is something that he had to do even if it it hurt him so much but he had to do it and blah blah blah, this explanation was really vague and I got almost nothing out of it. It has been 4 months and it still hurts so much. I cry everyday and I've been feeling lonely and terrible. I hate this feeling so much.
What made it worse was that recently my friend was able to follow him on social media that and his activities really hurt me, it looks like he had many new girls in his life and there were so many flirty comments by him on their pictures. This really hurt me a lot and I cannot believe that this was once the boy I planned to spend the rest of my life with. It's been so long but I still want him back.
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