Distance may work for SOME but it didn't work for me.
I was young and naïve at the age of 19; I wasn’t really looking for love, or let alone a relationship that one April Fool’s day we found each other online. I feel that because we met on April fool’s that it wasn’t meant to be.
One day a few months later, I had this strange new weird feeling about him before I met him in person, I somehow knew he was the one, or so I had thought. I reacted on that feeling and had asked him if he would marry me.
One time he tried to come up where I am since we were quite far he got denied at the boarder because apparently he had lied even though he did want to move up where I am to be with me and get married and all.
Fast forward, he had cheated on me in regards to that but I forgave him stupidly.
He had started to become different eventually with time. He and I had phone sex a lot of the time because distance being an issue.
He became more demanding requested things I never felt comfortable with or capable of doing so I over time grew tired of it and just lied and said I had been playing when I wasn’t, I had been acting it out he completely fell for it and believed I was.
I must admit I felt terrible for deceiving him like that but I also felt like I couldn’t just tell him that I didn’t like feeling pressured like he had made me feel.
In times of needing a partner to discuss things, I felt like I could never talk to him because he always just said “ok” so it felt like I couldn’t talk to him when I needed advice or just someone to be there, I really felt like I had to hold everything in.
I often felt trapped nearing the end of our relationship because he blackmailed me into staying in the relationship even though I wasn’t happy. I admit I strayed so yes I cheated, I felt bad but I also felt good about it because it got me out of what I considered to be hell.