No contact sucks, I lost my girlfriend for good because of it!

So, I followed the "No contact" rule, anticipating that eventually my girlfriend will start to feel "fear of lose" and eventually will come back or at least make a contact with me. Instead - I got...a pregnant X-gf !

So, as I posted here before she broke up with me while she on long vacation in her country. I also went abroad during this time, we were not in touch for 3 weeks. Eventually I arrived to airport to meet her, naively thinking she will be nicely surprised. Instead I saw her together with her X from last long (3 years) relationship. He was near her during this time and she just felt directly into his arms (don’t want to say di..ck)...After few days when I have eventually had a chance to talk with her on the phone - she was crying saying me she is very confused, don’t understand how its happened and (still) don't know what to do (she is pregnant from him now - did I mention this ? and still does not what to do ?!). So I said to her "Seems to me honey, you already decided"...We talked may be 5 mins. She told me she will call me some other day and indeed she called but I didn’t answer and since then (already a week) she didn't call, nor SMS, nothing...

I know what most of you will say "Leave the bitch"..and probably you right, but what hurt me so much that we never had a chance to talk. Also I think we all do mistakes and if she can give me some reasonable explanation I can accept it. I think at least I deserve an explanation what happened (she mentioned once that her family pushed her to come back to him). And I do believe deep inside her she is sorry for what happen and would like to turn the wheel back. So what should I do ? I loved her very much - and if it was up to me, I would give her a second chance, but currently I am not sure if she wants it. May be she just ashamed (she mentioned it) and / or afraid to approach me thinking that she will do me better if just let me go. But I still constantly think about her. I have to mention that I was so angry and felt so desperate about what happen that I slept with two girls during last week..I never saw or will see them again, but I was so angry at her that she even doesn't want to explain me what happened during this time. She always swear to me (almost on the bible) that she and her X are completely over and there is no way back...I have never jealous or was clingy. But apparently she was wrong. I have a feeling that he manipulated her when he felt she was "lonely" _ family pressure. So he did what he had to do. But I really didn't expect it from her. She was always told me that "I am her love of a life" and all this stuff...we were talking about getting marry one day...On the one hand I really angry at her and feel cheated, on the other hand I still love her and want to hug her. What should I do ?

Also she “accused” me in what happen – saying that I so easily accepted her suggestion to have a break and then going to “No contact” mode – she felt “pushed” by me. Does she has a point ? May be.I
No contact sucks, I lost my girlfriend for good because of it!
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