3 months post break-up and I am so angry?

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It’s been 3 months since I was dumped. My boyfriend at the time said “everything was perfect, I checked all his boxes” BUT he “needed to make sure someone else couldn’t check boxes” that he “didn’t know existed yet.”

This was a week after my birthday, 1 week after he gave me a vacation to my favorite place in the world and then took it away.

I am so incredibly angry. I’m angry just thinking about him, hearing his name etc. I look back and I realize the entire relationship only seemed so great because of things I did for him. I can’t think of a time he did anything for me - he never included me in his plans, he hid me from his family and friends for 2 years, he never planned dates, he was so immature, he prioritized literally everything and everyone over me and I just let it happen.

I am so angry because I did anything and everything for someone who took me for granted and I loved him so much I didn’t even realize it at the time. He left me to find something better, but still hangs out with the same 1 person that he hates every weekend to get incredibly drunk because he doesn’t have any other friends that will go out with him (he’s 30).

I knew all along that if this relationship was ending, this would be the reason why. He was always looking for something better whether it’s friends, clothes, where he lives, what he’s eating, etc. I knew this was going to happen to me.

I am so angry and I just don’t know how to deal with it. I hate seeing him out with his 1 friend having a good time and I’m sitting her angry, upset, and feeling lost/not good enough. Part of me wants him to come back so I can just reject him completely but I know that’s not the mature thing to do.
3 months post break-up and I am so angry?
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