Im a 17 year old girl , I had a crush on a boy who was a friend of mine he accepted me, i was worried that this won't go for long without knowing anybody , i started to lose intrest in other things, talk less, i lost my confidence modified to be someone else that he would never recognise the other side of me some one who forgots what she actually were who is still in grief that she again lost a good friend now its too hard to go back i became completely emotionless when he rejected me after 10 days!! i was afraid that people would think of me as someone who doesn't worth his attention who is actually not cutout to be somebody's girlfriend it was really hard for me ever since i started to like him i couldn't concentrate on my studies by this time i was spaced out from my class and was labelled as one of the rebel's who is in demand to talk to boys and turned out its even hard to talk to girls i was becoming worse i was really afraid to talk in class because he is in the same class , when i return to my hostel i hate it when some girls talks about him i hate it when he talks to the girl who sits beside me, i can't get over him , I'm jealous, but he still wants to be friends its hard , i already lost myself i lost my voice lost my friends lost my smile lost my intrest , i can't learn a thing i can't stop thinking about the past , i hated myself for ruining my last year with the friends i had for past 5 years i really want to regain my oldself back , but i already forgot who i am, im an empty shell who don't understand any emotion can't concentrate in anything always thinking about if only i kept all to myself things wouldn't have gone this bad
I liked a boy who used to be my friend he rejected me , but he wants to be friends again how can I face him?
