Long story short. Me and my ex broke up about 3 months ago. She broke up with me after I became distant and for her it felt more casual and like she wasn't valued. This was largely down to my own mental state at the time and my own negative emotions which I was projecting out which impacted the relationship.
1.5 months ago I suggested if she wanted to try again. She said she didn't want a relationship like that and would remain friends. Maybe more out of politeness but she said she was happy to chat to me Etc. Even said if she was around we could meet etc. She felt she didn't feel people could change that quickly. Which I hadn't at the time.
Since then I have worked on myself and I have changed for the better. So I guess it's bittersweet that it took this breakup for me to see the light.
She never initiates texts with me. But when I do message she responds and we always have an exchange. Now about 2 or so weeks ago I suggested if she fancied dating again and that I was the new me (essentially reverted back to who I really am before lockdown and me negative mental state). We could take it slow. Test the water. I literally spilled my soul on how I am now in a better place etc and if she wanted to give it another go. She said she was impressed with how much I had evolved and would think about it. But still wasn't sure if people can change that quickly. She also said maybe they can and that was holding her back atm.
She said she would come back to me. That was 2 weeks ago. I messaged again a couple of days ago. We had a brief convo and she apologised again for not going through all the messages and that she would. So she answered all the chit chat questions but ignored the the main one about how she felt and if she had thought about it. Obviously frustrating for me. I'm not really a game player.
She responded again and said sorry and that she hadn't got round to listening to all of my voice notes yet.. and said she's sorry for taking so long. Voice notes I sent 2 weeks ago.
