We dated for three years (junior and senior year of high school, freshman year of college). He was the love of my life, and my first real relationship as was I to him. I followed him through this major weigh loss journey, and we were all each other had as our home lives were pitched into warfare. We moved in together at 17 until I left for school. There’s was a lot of chaos in our relationship- he broke a window to my car, broke a bracelet that was given to me by a pursuer- the lows were the lowest I’ve seen. I was no angel either. I never broke his things or purposely called him things that would bruise his confidence. We broke up in January of 2020- it was my decision.
I got in a year and a half long relationship (total waste of time). He reached out to me occasionally, But I could still feel that he hadn’t grown enough to overpower his anger issues. I entertained another dude for maybe a year- and it was a friends with benefits situation. My ex tried to come back into my life, and said he was well aware of this dude and the nature of our relationship. My ex vanished as per usual.
A couple months ago my ex started texting me more and more. He told me he broke up with his girlfriend and asked why we didn’t just stay together. We’d sit on the phone for hours at one point. Finally he asked to visit and we had a blast. He didn’t leave till 3 in the morning. Shortly before this I pushed my friends with benefits to the curb because I didn’t want it to interfere with my chance at happiness. I refused to sleep with my ex and I told him it was because it was emotional for me- and I would when I’m ready and feel safe. We spent more time together- I believed all of his words and he invested the time for me to think we were going to give this a real shot. We slept together- and then the communication slowed. I asked to talk over a call and he called me annoying for bringing it up. He got me good, but I still love him. What do I do to move forward from the betrayal and pain?
