Hi everyone, I will try to make this short. I recently broke up from a 5 year relationship. There were many issues, long story short, there was toxic dynamic where she was constantly breaking set boundries, but I couldnt even hang out with friends because she was very controlling. I started going to therapy and got emotionally stronger, such thing did not go well with her.
Recently she threatened me that she would go out and sleep with someone elese if I didn't do what she wanted. That was my breaking point. I left her. I know I must not go back to her and I am standing my ground as best as I can.
Not everything was aweful I guess because I find myself missing her. Nights are especially hard. Last night I cried so hard feeling angry, frustrated, scared that she will replace me fast, sad because she is gone, you know the whole package of emotions.
I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. break up was 3 weeks ago, tomorrow starts the fourth. Again, I am standing my ground but it hurts so much to think of her with someone else and to remember her presence in my whole every day. I did everything for her, to pursue a better life as a couple and for me to be able to provide better for a future family. Now that she is gone, I have that emptyness. All I do is hit the gym for hours, but then when I get home it is so hard. I hate cooking now, because we used to cook our every meal together.
Any words on this subject?
