My best friend (24M) and I (23F) had a huge fight and he doesn’t want to be friends anymore?

[Anonymous]

My best friend and I had a huge fight a little more than a month ago and he said he needed time to process things. However, I gnatted a lot and 2 weeks ago he said he got really mad with me, saying he has felt tortured and can’t stand it anymore, he said he doesn’t know how to make himself care about me again and see me as a friend. I stopped texting him and decided to go into NC for some time, but we saw each other a couple of times at the gym and he greets me every time he sees me. He also wears a bracelet I gave him after the fight (I had purchased it before the fight but received it after we stopped talking). I’ve apologised many times but I feel like he will never forgive me (I made a lot of mistakes and I deeply regret them). I told him I’m gonna change and eliminate my negative traits but he doesn’t seem to believe. I’ve decided to send him a letter maybe a month after the “break up”, saying how much I love him, how much I’m sorry, etc, etc (I’ve already written it and I think it’s very emotional and poetic and it will make him feel something) but I’m scared of what will happen. Do you guys think sending a letter is appropriate in my situation?

[boggboss]

Sure u can send it but it depends on him and where his mind is at as life isn't a movie this letter won't just fix the situation hopefully he has not made his final choice as if he has I dont see the letter changing anything

[MementoMori777]

try it, at this point you have nothing to lose cause you already lost it, you can only gain

[Staximus]

Well what is he even mad and tortured about

[Asker]

He didn’t explain why he feels like that, but I think it’s Cus I was a bit controlling (and I was Cus I’m constantly scared I’m gonna lose him). Also in previous fights that haven’t been as serious and we’ve reconciled the next day, I have gone to his house to talk to him and he feels as if I’m gonna do It again, even though it’s been more than a month now and haven’t done it. He said he feels like he is in a trap, even though I didn’t do the things he thinks I’ll do.

[DextroShade]

Men aren't your friends.