How do you feel right now?

[DizzyDesii]

In simplest terms, FUCK “my dude” and fuck my ex and all my former backups for likely jinxing shit between us today. I’m back on the market quicker than I was off. But I gotta spend tonight hearing his bitchass snore in my ear for one last night. And i hate the B word! Ugh! GOODNIGHT #feelfreetolist

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+1 y

I tried to be mature and not curse that morherfucker out. So i had to come vent elsewhere and be immature here instead lmao. Now I can sleep in hoe-ly peace 🙏

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+1 y

I tried to go out mature but I could only bite my tongue for so long. He thought our discussion was just a discussion and that things could be laughed off in the end. Yea no. I stayed calm and told him we were done. I tried to grow and be mature and not be petty. But I just couldn’t go out completely quiet. I didn't yell but I said something I’d consider fcked up but he was like “I feel like a pos. I deserve that.”. He didn't but I feel better 🤷‍♀️ My love for him is why i didn't say worse

[Finchie40]

Don’t fuck with Dez lol my question to you Dez is why do you have back up plans? Honestly that’s probably a reason you are having troubles in your relationships, when you have a back up plan you aren’t able to give your all to your partner , you are only giving your partner what you want to give them , making you a selfish person by thinking you are always right and your partner is wrong , because you have something to fall back on, your back up plan. I use to do the same shit when I was younger to realize how selfish of a person I was being when it came to relationships I thought I was always right, basically implying, if things didn’t go my way I will just replace you. You honestly will never experience true love until you learn how to remove selfishness for your partner, having back up plans is not going to make things better it’s just going to make things worse to be honest with you , For you to honestly love someone you have to give someone your all , you can’t expect someone to love you if you aren’t giving your all. Why I no longer jump into relationships with girls mainly for this reason , If I am not her top priority she won’t be mine

[DizzyDesii]

Please dont spell Dez with a Z. Thats 3 of my exes name 🤣 I’m Des. But i have backup plans as in, getting to know more than one person at a time until i’m for sure who matches me best. When I think i figured out the best fit, then i get more serious, confess more feels and later on would be physical. But i’m not going to be physical with more than one at a time. When I come across someone selfless then i will be selfless as well. But until then, im keeping my backups for at least a good 1-3 months 🤷‍♀️

[Finchie40]

If you are just dating then that’s one thing , but when you start giving your heart to someone and they are given you back the same , it’s best to eliminate those back up plans is all I am saying , Honesty is going to help love grow between you and someone else , when you are honest within yourself it’s easier
To be honest with someone else , when you hold secrets from someone you aren’t being honest within yourself. All secrets do is cause Conflict in a relationship , if you want someone to trust in you , you have to trust yourself first by being honest within yourself

[DizzyDesii]

As i said on another post, i cut everyone off after i said i loved him. And he and i have been very honest for some time. Its just his indecisiveness got the best of him

[Finchie40]

Then it’s your job to keep him in line lol

[DizzyDesii]

I could have if i showed my true Aquarius side. But i tried to be a suttle pisces

[Finchie40]

LOL show the true Aquarius side things will probably get better lol

[DizzyDesii]

Nah but i’d feel better after cursing they mf ass out lol

[ohsheeT]

A little bit sleepy just waking up

This smile on my face and a song in my head.

It's not really how it goes and I don't know the name of the song I just hear theses words.

Desilu desilu she has two big pains
Desilu Desi Lou she took their ball and chain.

If you do dizzy Lou. She's rearranging your brain

she took the keys to there Cadillac car.
drove into Texas she drove them so far LOL

Now I wish I knew what that song was called. And the real words to it.
just to see what the real words say.

[DizzyDesii]

EWw please dont say Lu. he's ones of the backups i just dropped 🤣 And he was soooo hot too… but that mf was crazy

[ohsheeT]

Isn't that the way it usually is the moment you meet you just have all these emotions and feel good feelings and blah blah blah and a week down the road you're going oh my God I need to run I need to run fast

[DizzyDesii]

Normally longer than a week but yea

[ohsheeT]

So that song is called normally longer than a week.. or but ya

[midnightmoon05]

Been a good weekend, hanging out with my family, my sisters family. The baby was so fun to be with. We babysat while my sister and my brother inlaw when out on a dinner date. Had a great night rest. And woke up to this.

[DizzyDesii]

Glad you slept well

[electromagnetic]

Curse his ass out!
let him have it. Rip him a new ear hole for listening.
CHOOSE VIOLENCE 🥰🥰

[DizzyDesii]

😂😂😂 you’re amazing! But honestly i said rude shit in the most calming respectful way possible lol and now im off flirtin with folks

[electromagnetic]

Can’t keep playing games anymore 😆 sometimes you just have to say it bluntly to get the message across.

[DizzyDesii]

I used to SNAP 2021 and back but i tried to change 2022+. Im ready to revert back cause SOME OF these mfs need to be DAMAGED

[electromagnetic]

🤣time wasters should be charged user fees.

[DizzyDesii]

Mfs can pay me in sperm donations. Cum in a cup please and thank you

[electromagnetic]

🤣💀 I cannot top this comment.

[DizzyDesii]

🤣🤣🤣

[AviatorTom]

At this instant, my SO is lying next to me in bed, reading her book, and I'm getting pretty horny.

[DizzyDesii]

Throw the book and Pounce on that ass

[Paris13]

Happy and Blessed. xxoo

[DizzyDesii]

Amazeballs

[Paris13]

That would be on Amazon, girl. lolxxoo

[DJB72]

I'm so sorry. While it may hurt right now, you're better off without someone who can say they love you one day and treat you like 💩 the next.

As someone who tends to love with everything I am when I got hurt and my relationship with my exes ended I waited to feel whole before I got involved with anyone else. After my first it took 3 years. After my second it took 6 years. After my third it took 3 years.

My wife and I have been married 20 years this week. It's not exactly been a fairytale thanks to health issues and consequent financial problems, but it's been worth fighting for. We're in a shit-storm at the moment because of health again. When it's real, after the emotional buzz wears off and real life kicks in, it's worth it.

It'll happen for you. I was 31 when I got married. I was 46 before our son was born. It'll happen.

[Oliverlogan263]

Well Damn, that sucks ass! I thought things were going good with your dude too. Fuck that noise, he ain't worth losing sleep over. At least you found out now instead of getting more invested, you feel? Fuck listening to his snoring bitch ass all night, I'd be popping my AirPods in real quick. Don't even give him the satisfaction! You're better off without someone playing games like that. It's his loss, you'll find someone way better. Don't even stress it, just kick back and chill now that you're back on the market. Fuck what anyone else thinks, do you! Get some rest and don't let this punk live in your head rent free.

[DizzyDesii]

Lmao poppin airpods 🤣 I wish i could get rest. I prob slept 3 hours and i gotta work in a bit 💀

[Oliverlogan263]

Yeah cause shit fuck all dat shit with fuckin snoring in my damn ear 🤣 that's the worst tho, barely any sleep and having to go to work still! I'd be struggling for sure. Props to you for powering through even when you feel like garbage.

Maybe try chugging some preworkout or buy one of those huge ass coffees, anything to get you through the shift without passing out. And don't even think about that jagoff anymore, he ain't worth losing sleep over.

Just nod along to some hype music with your AirPods in, maybe that'll give you a burst of energy. And solidarity always helps. You got this! Just get through today and then it's chilling time.

Keep reminding yourself it could be worse, you're single and free of that bozo now at least. Big picture, this day will pass and you'll be glad you don't gotta wake up next to him ever again. Hang in there!

[DizzyDesii]

Sadly i move on quickly so im pretty sure i won't be thinkin about him much after today

[Oliverlogan263]

That's the spirit then lol it goes to show he wasn't meant for you anyway

[Lynx122]

I'm feeling good :) I just had to get vaccinated again for my trip to India. But now it's over and I'm back home and I bought some things I needed on the way too. There's still a lot of things I'm trying to figure out about my life but it's more long term and at a high level I guess. In the moment I'm good :).

[ShadezMcgee]

Personally feel hot as hell, struggling to fall asleep.

... what the hell happened on your end? Not even a day and you are saying this was a jinx?

[DizzyDesii]

Its prob karma, hell if i know. But yea i struggled to sleep too

[ShadezMcgee]

Karma for what though? I am just saying that fast of a turn around makes no sense.

[DizzyDesii]

Oh i know what i’ve done. Neither he or i are innocent

[ShadezMcgee]

... what?

[DizzyDesii]

We’re guilty in different forms

[RavVid]

Well my advice on the other question seems to be redundant now. In fact misplaced.

So what went wrong?

This is the place to be immature, you're right in that.

[DizzyDesii]

He said some crazy random shit that left me flabbergasted to say the least. I wanted to say so much back but it hurts because i held it all in out of respect for myself and not wanting to ruin my reputation. But he's fckin trash

[RavVid]

Oh. Yeah you can want to say some truths back but it is usually best not to and to stay in control of yourself. I think it is good when people remove themselves early from further consideration. If he is trash at least he didn't waste more of your time.

[DizzyDesii]

he's not trash. I was just mad. I still have to deal with him until Friday. he's very lost in life. I almost pity him

[RavVid]

Elsewhere you wrote something that made me think you were back together.

[DizzyDesii]

We got back together the night of the day i ended with him 🤣

[RavVid]

Hope you don't mind me chuckling. :)

[DizzyDesii]

Lol nah its all good 😂 But we’ve definitely been more attached since then. I guess almost losing eachother made us go even harder.

[RavVid]

Guys and gals are a constant source of comedy hence the whole romcom genre. Plus an almost universal inside joke because most of us have been part of it at some time.

[JDavid25]

OMG Desii... Damn... Another one bites the dust.. I'm feeling alright.. Could be better, could be worse..

[DizzyDesii]

Look i had Pepsi, Mountain Dew, and this Tap Water mf. Now I’m ready for a new beverage 😂

[JDavid25]

Not tap water though? 😂😂😂.. Damn.. I thought you loved this man.. 😂😂..

[DizzyDesii]

I do but not enough to not speak my mind. Shit I’m free from that Dasani mf. He kept me tamed but now i dont give a damn

[iron_ninjs]

I feel as tired as I could be.
What happened between you to? Until yesterday, everything was great, wasn't it?

[DizzyDesii]

He said a lot of stupid shit that I just can’t let slide. Thats all I’d prefer to say in regards to that

[iron_ninjs]

Okay. I won't pry into it. Of you want to talk, or vent out, I'm here.

[SunnyRS]

I am fine at the moment and since I have no right to ask what happened between you two so, I won't but if you want to tell you can.
Or just forget about that mf there are others in line for you

[DizzyDesii]

he's not like a horrible person but he just wasn't for me and vice versa. I won't go in on him since i do love him in general but in a romantic sense, i’m good. I felt trapped and thats why i question if commitment is for me

[SunnyRS]

It's not a bad thing if you don't want commitment but it would make it difficult for you to be in a monopolistic relationship

[DizzyDesii]

I want commitment with someone i am fully physically and emotionally attracted to. And we have to have the same timeline in terms of goals. The timeline was our biggest issue. Without those 3 things, i doubt committing

[SunnyRS]

Hmm.. I understand, for commitment you both need to be on the same wavelength.
You will find someone like that soon enough, and even if not soon you are still going great.

[exitseven]

Damn, I thought this one was the "one" . sorry.

[DizzyDesii]

I dont know if i thought that which is why i questioned committing despite loving him

[Anonymous]

I'm suffering internally with anxiety and depression.. I feel as though I'm going to have a breakdown.

[DizzyDesii]

I pray you pull through. I probably brokedown enough for us both

[Opinion Owner]

Thank you ❤️

[Likes2drive]

Well I’ve been single so long I don’t know what it’s like to be in a. Relationship anymore, I’m just doing my own thing right now while visiting family in Florida right now so I’m just chilling

[NYCQuestions1976]

So is this a "I'm sorry." breakup? Or a "Congratulations!" breakup?

[DizzyDesii]

I’m still fckin with ya til i replace ya breakup

[NYCQuestions1976]

Sex continues with you *after* the breakup? Damn. I need you as my ex-girlfriend. LOL

[DizzyDesii]

Lmao not sex. I guess i shouldve used a better term

[DizzyDesii]

Well technically sex so ig lmao

[clampfan101]

I’m sorry things turned out so poorly.
I’m still looking for my second girlfriend.

[DizzyDesii]

You’ll find her

[LavLavLuv]

Unwell, bored, bad mood, confused mmmm perfecttt 😊👍

[DizzyDesii]

Split personality?

[LavLavLuv]

Noo🤣

[the_sinner]

Almost awful. Not doing good at work and also I feel really dull today. Hopefully things will get better for all of us soon.

[DizzyDesii]

Hopefully

[dragoblack]

*big hugs* I'm sorry to hear that. As for how i feel... tired as fuck and body pain.

[DizzyDesii]

Thanks *hugs*

[BryanMoore]

I feel a little tried, but fine. pretty neutral overall

[AlexEfron]

Well I don't understand the context but I'm enjoying it 😂

[Jerre]

Really tired this morning. Hope you had a good nights sleep!

[Apple1996]

Bad my life is a mess 😵

[DizzyDesii]

Aww no

[BobbieBoy666]

Nude and happy.

Just relaxing. 💞

[Redstang88]

Well that was quick

[DizzyDesii]

😂😂😂

[Phoenix98]

Little tired long day but an ok day.

[red-lipstick-girl]

I'm feeling really bad

[Billlewis]

I just started following you and I'd be honored if you would follow me as well if it's alright. I'm more than willing to hear your concerns and challenges if you like.

[talka20]

hungry and slow... woke up late Desii

[Sparkie460]

I'm sorry dessi. I feel really bad for you 😞

[DizzyDesii]

I dont because i know i partially deserved it

[Sparkie460]

What happened

[DizzyDesii]

Indecisiveness and inexperience

[Sparkie460]

On his part?

[DizzyDesii]

Yep. Commitment issues on my part but thats only because of his indecisiveness. He didn't know about the commitment issue but he was having some issues of his own so i hardly felt bad

[Sparkie460]

I had hoped that you finally found your true love. Cheer up, you still got me. 😆 🤣

[DizzyDesii]

Im not even sad tbh. I felt trapped 😂

[Sparkie460]

That is definitely the feeling that you don't want in a relationship

[DizzyDesii]

If i question if i can commit to someone then i know i dont fully see a future with them. And he was questioning if our goals would coincide so ig he also questioned the future

[Sparkie460]

So you both had your doubts about the relationship

[DreamLife7]

🤣😭😭 "former back ups" .

[DizzyDesii]

I shouldve gotten more out of them before i dropped them 😂 But now I’m just gonna gather some new replacements

[DreamLife7]

Lmfaooooo 🤣 that's hilarious

[shades777]

your probably a back up for someone too

[DizzyDesii]

I solely believe everyone is until they are exclusive/official/committed. And then anything outside of that is cheating

[shades777]

huh good point, who you think gets let go more handsome me or ugly men?

[DizzyDesii]

Unattractive

[shades777]

ah thats cap, women be talking up ugly dudes all the time, like he funny yatta yatta

[DizzyDesii]

Desperate ones

[shades777]

word

[TallAnon]

Sounds like he fucked up

[DizzyDesii]

Yep and laughed like it was no big deal

[TallAnon]

Sounds like he needs to learn

[DizzyDesii]

I see now why “experience” matters. And i dont mean sexually. This dude was lost af. Like sir i thought you said you had a girlfriend before? 🤣

[TallAnon]

Hahaha, I don't know what happened obviously, but I think most things come down to "don't be an asshole"

[DizzyDesii]

He was prob the least of an ahole i dated

[TallAnon]

Sounds like you're getting better at picking guys then, haha

[Djaay]

Straight up blessed and livin good as possible.

[Agape93]

Numb.

[DizzyDesii]

Same

[Abdulwahh]

I feel contented

[eagle1951]

tired very very tired

[justabuddy]

Exhausted, tired , overstressed.

[Anonymous]

Like I'm curious what happened

[DizzyDesii]

Long story short, We’re just both full of crap.

[Opinion Owner]

Self awareness is sexy

[Opinion Owner]

I love women fresh out of relationships lmao and no im not creepy about it

[DizzyDesii]

when you’re 21, hmu 🤣

[annabananna]

Like a weirdo

[Tomisworthless]

You could be my beautiful weirdo :)

[sirderpsalot123]

Tired lol goodnight

[Anonymous]

Horny lol