No, it doesn't mean I'm going to date guys instead. I tried that and it made me uncomfortable but at this point I wish I was gay. It doesn't mean that it's because I could never find the right girl. It just that the odds of finding the right girl are very low. There may be girls I like who would go out with a guy that looks like me but my persona and my lifestyle choices isn't their type. There may be girls I like who would go out with a guy who has my persona but I don't look physically attractive to them. Or it could be that their personas are not the right ones for me. I have no time and energy to waste my time finding the girl who is the right one for me when the chances are so low. This means that I will start my journey to forever give up on relationships and dating women. The door is closing.
Yes it's mostly my decision based on the women of today and my experiences. My horrible relationship with my mom has scarred me and makes me not trust women. Most women are hypocrites because it's okay for them to be a certain way but if a guy is just like that then they don't want anything to do with him. I'm that the type of person who finds reasons to not like people. I will become a celibate for the rest of my life because STDs and cheating is on the rise.
I know that there will be people telling me why I shouldn't give up and some bitter women will go ape shit. But I'm not going to read any of the opinions. #Peaceout.