I miss you! I want you to come back NOW! You've ruined dating for me, in a good and bad way. Good because I did not have much of a standard before, but now I do. Bad because now nobody meets the standard. I refuse to accept anything less than how you treated me. You were so sweet, kind, respectful. I felt comfortable with you, and you were with me, I think. Truthfully, I tried dating since our time apart, it's not working out. I can't help but compare the guys to you and nobody gives me the same feeling. Some were as kind as you but there was a lack of connection and comfort.
Truthfully, I sort of hate you. We've talked a few times since you left, and you mentioned seeing each other again when you come back. That gets my hopes up, but then you go distant and I wonder if you still feel the same as you did before. I like to think it's because you're busy working but who really knows. I just know it's hard not to think of you, and I hate it. I'm trying to move on and forget you but it's tough.
You came into my life after a painful time in my life and it was healing. It's okay if we're not meant for each other after all, I still appreciate the temporary happiness and showing me good guys exist.
Wishing you the best. (me)