Still baffled 🧐😅?

[Jamestown1134]

So I've know this girl for about 8 years now and we have always had a very close connection, I've helped her through her break up and been there for her little boy. She's been there through my heart attack and messy breakup from my ex. Loads more but long story short is She has now asked me to be her boyfriend. Course I jumped at the opportunity as she is amazing. It's been a month now and I'm still baffled by it.

Firstly I am still in shock she asked me first (nothing wrong with women asking men) just I find is rare that women do that and it's actually really nice.
Secondly I'm wondering if it's a dream as seems too good to be true yet feels amazing.
Lastly why do I have this overwhelming fear she will leave me?

Don't get me wrong we have had so many people congratulate us and her friends have said she is so happy now. Both familes are over the moon. Even her ex was supportive of it.

Question is am I being insecure and worried about past issues that it's made me put my guard up? Am I Overthinking it?
I don't know if I'm just looking for reassurance or I'm just being stupidly insecure about it.

Any advice would be appreciated 😅
Thank you.

[IJhonnyI]

I do wanna tell you something I some days look back and fear it was me who messed up what I had and insecurities are a main killer of relationships so if you want advice unless you have rock hard evidence on her leaving you or her finding someone else keep on enjoying that beautiful "dream" cause let me tell u when I say I can't go back to my dream I can't but it my case it was mental abuse almost impossible for me to explain it but like I said dont let it get in the way and her reassuring you shouldn't be a problem if it's real just putting it out there

[Jamestown1134]

Thank you. I understand where you are coming from. My previous relationship had elements of mental abuse in and I think what I fear now could stem from that. She surprises me daily with different things that she does and I'm here like is this normal to no longer feel numb 😅

[IJhonnyI]

😂I get you 100% but believe me don't let the past situations stem too what u have now trust me I know you know it's not worth it unless she shows otherwise my man then do what u gotta do but until she only shows you go don't go off impulse and enjoy what you have in front of you

[jennifer_bloom]

Trust your gut instinct cause it’s God speaking to you.

[Anonymous]

Awww