Never been in a relationship, never had sex, and I feel like I'm doomed. Nobody has ever really liked me in my life. And the one guy I really thought liked me and that I admired for over a year likes another girl. It seems that being in university everybody just wants to hookup, and the good ones are taken. They'll just lead me on for sex. And I tried hooking up with someone in the first few bases even though I knew he didn't actually care for me and I absolutely hated it. And yes, I made the first move as I usually try to do but rarely does someone give me a chance. I felt like crap. Why? Because frankly I want a meaningful connection. I never had that in highschool and I feel behind. I don't really enjoy having to force myself to hookup with someone because everybody says I need to because nobody wants relationships at my age. I just feel like a failure. And I've loved and worked on myself for years hoping that something might change, but it never does. It just seems like every other girl can get anybody they want, but never me. And frankly, I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm just so tired, and bored, and lonely. My confidence seems to just be slowly falling again like it did in highschool.
(20F) How on earth do I find a relationship in university?
