I'm ugly myself. I have grown up experiencing it all with being ugly. Bullied, rejected, ignored etc.
My parents, and all my siblings are beautiful. Like conventionally attractive. I am the only ugly one. (So I have good genes in me that I could pass on. ) Specifically because I have an underdeveloped jaw due to sucking on my thumb for so many years.
I want to get married and have kids in the future, but I'm SO scared they are going to be ugly. I don't want them to experience the same things I've gone through, it's a hell and I wouldn't wish that upon my own children. Therefore I want to marry a handsome man so that my kids have a higher chance of being beautiful. I do have good genes in me considering all my siblings are conventionally attractive, it's just me who's ugly. (I have 6 siblings)
He doesn't have to be a 10/10, but like needs good features. Well facial structure, a straight or upturned small or medium nose, and that's about it. Just good genes so that my children doesn't have to go through what I've been through.
I'd be even happier if the guy is blonde, because I have blonde siblings so I am capable of having blonde children. I want my daughter to be blonde, have a beautiful eye color, a good jaw, good lips, good facial structure and a pretty small nose unlike my Godzilla nose.
I just want the best for my kids, I don't want to bring ugly kids into this world knowing what will await them. All the shit they will have to go through.
I feel guilty about wanting a handsome man.
