So let’s call my ex Nathan and we’ll call his friend Kaleb. At first Nathan and I were friends kind of. We hung out at school once and we texted all the time, we had a mutual friend. When we hung out the first time he brought his friend Kaleb with and I brought my friend. I immediately started crushing on Kaleb and I knew he was into me too. When we hugged goodbye the first time it was obvious and Nathan got jealous and didn’t want us to hug each other anymore. At this time I already knew Nathan had fallen for me but I was dating a girl. Me and Kaleb got high together one day and we had this moment together where I thought we were gonna kiss but then Nathan asked my brother to interrupt. I told Nathan that I have a crush on Kaleb and he was pretty upset but he told me that Kaleb is bad news. I decided not to go for Kaleb because it would ruin my friendship with Nathan. There was still this sexual tension between us tho and we’d piss each other off and playfully hit each other and Nathan would always get mad. One time they were literally pulling me at my arms from both ends. I decide to break up with my girlfriend and decided to date Nathan because he was the nicer one who didn’t smoke or drink plus my parents hated Kaleb and loved Nathan. Kaleb eventually became close friends with my brother. Me and Nathan date for two years until we finally broke up because at first I felt like he had an inappropriate relationship with his female friends until he convinced me I was crazy because I have bpd. Later I started to distance myself for my own sanity and he started verbally abusing me. We broke up but like a week later I had sex with Kaleb. While we had sex he asked me if I’d date him if he fell in love with me and later said the same thing. He told me he wanted to get me before Nathan did and that at first he tried to steal me from Nathan. But my parents won’t let Nathan in our house and my mom thinks Kaleb is bad news, a “menace” actually.
Am I falling for my ex’s best friend? Do I shut these feelings down?
