Hi everybody. My boyfriend (35M) and I (22F) have been together for about 2 years. This summer, we spent the whole summer traveling together (on his wallet). It was wonderful and we clicked really well together, despite the constant contact, surprisingly.
This entire summer I also kept the fact from him that I had lost my academic scholarship (so starting fall (now) I will be paying my own tuition). When we were traveling I mentioned transferring schools and he was surprised. I lied and said it’s just because I want to (not admitting the financial stressors).
I just got back to school and I guess was acting very stressed out. He asked me why and I broke down emotionally and came clear to him that I had lost my scholarship. His reaction is what I expected and was the reason I was afraid to tell him…
He was first in disbelief. Then he got angry that I didn’t communicate it earlier as he “could’ve gotten me a tutor” or helped me focus more on my academics. He starts scolding me saying that I went from having a full ride now to giving it all up and that I’m a terrible person for lying/ hiding this from him. I “the liar” essentially broke his trust in me and it can’t be repaired. All while I’m sobbing on FaceTime.
Later that night he texts me, “hope you’re okay. I just wish you had talked to me earlier”. I liked the message and went to bed. When I woke up I texted him “morning”. he says, “no good morning?” I reply “still very stressed out. Not feeling good”. He leaves me on read. I kinda want him to apologize for the harsh things he said to me. Is this too much to expect? I know I was in the wrong for not being transparent, but I’m now SO hurt by his reaction. I feel as though I can’t confide in him again bc in a way he broke my comfort with him. I’m so hurt and embarrassed. What do we do to repair our damages and reconnect?
