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I’ve accepted the fact that i’ll be single for the rest of my life :(?

i was with my ex boyfriend for 10 years and i had my last straw yesterday. there is not one day when we can have a happy day together, we were always arguing and i’ve had it. he doesn’t do anything for me. he doesn’t take me out on dates, he doesn’t hangout with me as often, we don’t talk often either. he rather hangout with his friends than hangout with me, he will rather buy beer than go out to dinner with me, he would rather ignore my phone calls and text msgs. he told me last night that he does what he wants because he doesn’t respect me and he has showed me signs for years. he has ruined who i was. he has told me that im not worth it and that im a bitch and i’ve accepted it thinking it was true. i’ve stayed thinking i was going to make him love being with me like he did when we started. instead i ruined who i was just to be with a boy who loved manipulating me and gaslight me. i’m 32 years old and im now a person who no man wants because a man ruined me. i didn’t want to be alone forever but now i feel like that’s what im meant to be. it makes me really sad. i wanted to have kids and now im 32 with none of what i wanted :(
I’ve accepted the fact that i’ll be single for the rest of my life :(?
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