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TW- Was I R@ped?

I have been SA'ed by 3 guys and 2 of them r@ped me or i think it was.

This took place at college where I would be dropped off and picked up.

I Was alone from 6am-8pm everyday On campus with Nobody to actually talk to or do anything with, friends or family.
So when someone said hey do u want to hang out? The answer was yes. And a bigger yes because it was someone I liked

Sheltered, naive me, didn't know what hangout" was code for. So when I hangout with this guy at his place he starts making a move. I didn't want to do it but I did like him and I did enjoy making out but it got out of hand.

I told him it hurt and taped him (as in tapping out) as this was my first time. And when i tried to move away he held me back.
After the first time I thought I had done something wrong and that it was my fault even though i told him "no and to stop", I didn't realize it was could r@pe. But I liked him. So I just assumed it was a misunderstanding, or maybe he couldn't hear me.

And... i kept going back to him. THIS IS WHERE IM MOSTLY CONFUSED
Even tho I put myself in those situations usually id still tell him "that I didn't want to do it and that i didn't like it" before i even went to his house and he would say its okay but still try it anyway. And i would cave. I also felt if I'd upset him he would hold it against me and leave me stranded as he was my only transportation from his place back to school.

As far as my other sa's

One would come to my house and wouldn't leave until I gave in. I had to try and make him lose interest in me. He would also try to intimidate me.


And the other forced my hand onto him when i told him i was a virg. And he would stay at the campus as long as he could and would bother me if he'd seen me.

by the way THIS WAS MY FIRST TIME IN SCHOOLING I WAS HOMESCHOOLED AND didn't KNOW SQUAT. Just turned 21

TW- Was I R@ped?
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