My mental health and grades are ruining me, what should I do?

[Anonymous]

I'm a high school student doing grade 11 and I already feel like a failure and disappointment in life. I've been secretly struggling with my mental health for years now and this year has been my breaking point because my grades are getting effected big time. I have absolutely nobody to talk to and I failed my maths test reallyyyyy badly. Grade 11 iis a important year too. I have been well aware that I also base my self-worth on grades and with the fact that I've been failing this one important subject, I feel like my life is falling apart. Everytime I write a math exam I feel this huge panic over me. And I promise you I do practice and put effort, I really do, I've had sleepless nights for this, on the other hand the teacher moves way to fast for me. I grew up in a very Christian family and I'm taught to pray at times I feel like I'm down. I do pray but sometimes I feel like some situations require action too. My parents got me a really expensive tutor which I am really grateful for (but to them I'm not because I'm still failing the subject) I've asked them to switch me to different tutors but they seem to ignore me. I've asked them to stop sending me to that tutor because it's not working and they still don't listen. They keep complaining that I'm wasting their money. I've tried Youtube tutors but I get really distracted on devices so I prefer not to have any device. I've spoken to my parents about getting a psychologist but they said it's expensive and they have to pay for my extra lessons with my tutor (wish aren't even working) I feel as if my grades are more important than my health to them and I've gotten sick multiple times and lately I've been feeling like a risk to myself because I've been having suicidal thoughts. So this is me basically reaching out for help right now because I really don't know what to do anymore...

[Yuushiro]

I had a lot of friends who went through similar things in high-school, and went through a lot of stress and anxiety myself.

1. Your mental health in infinitely more important than your grades.

2. Find ways be alone and just relax, and take walks when you can.

3. Amthe SAT is more important than your GPA. If you study for something, study for that. I got into college with an SAT score of abour 1250, and got a decent scholarship for it.

4. Remember that the worst possible thing that could happen is for you to have to repeat a grade. It sucks, but its not the end of the world especially if it's due to mental issues.

5. Remember that once you get into college, it gets easier. You only have 2 more years of HS left, so you just have a little bit of time left.

6. Avoid drama at school.

7. Listen to lots of music.

8. Draw or write poetry to destress and express your emotions.

I hope this helps.

Feel free to DM me if you ever need help with anything.

[Pyrofox]

The only way you screw up high school ma'am is if you screw up both 11th grade and 12th and the summer schools between and after those grades. Cause there's always the ability to make up grades. The only time one fails school really are the ones who GIVE UP. Also not all colleges are psycho~ ego manaic 4.0 BS IVY league schools that are quite honestly a lie in themselves. You are buying the right to a degree not really learning the field. Look up the GPA of most of the IVY league schools and you will notice something similar to what I'm saying 99% of the graduates got a graduating gpa and 1% fail >.> makes ya realize an IVY league college isn't that special when everyone graduates so long as you participate.

[Anonymous]

You're not a failure. Your parents are failing at doing their job to provide you with adequate mental health treatment. You're suicidal and depressed, so you cannot focus on your school or test. Your anxiety is making it, so you cannot concentrate. You need therapy and maybe medication.

[Agape93]

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