Weddings and Kids
Seeing videos of beautiful moments between adult children and their parents will make me bawl. I was watching a video of a daughter and her husband revealing their pregnancy to her parents, and I realized I will never have that opportunity with my parents, or my grandparents (the people that raised me). It made me spiral into a dark place for a while.
Emotional Security
I haven't known what it's like to have someone love me unconditionally. I have a sister, but she's a narcissist and it's sad but I know I can never have that with her My grandparents, whom I loved dearly and knew loved me, had said (in the middle of a heated argument) "we wish your parents were alive so we didn't have to deal with raising you guys." It took a long time for me to find someone, anyone, that made me feel like it's okay to just exist.
Financial Security and School and my Future
I can't decide what I want to do for school, and I know my funds and time are limited to get on my feet. But that pressure makes it even harder for me to make a decision. But I know, after having been unhappy for so long, I can't do that to myself anymore. I don't have the will. So, for now, I'm drifting and am probably in denial about the urgency of my situation.
Anyways
The lessons I've faced can only be experienced, and never taught. I love myself most days, and I'm thankful that I had supportive friends and relatives to help me become stronger. Thank you for reading.
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