If you're reading this, you know who you are. This is for you.
I am not saying it will get better. I am not saying you should be alive because others would be sad if you died. Although I believe these statements are true, they are not conducive.
What I do want to tell you is that you matter. You are loved. You have a decision, a choice, and I respect that. I know from firsthand experience what it's like to see no light at the end of the tunnel. Only blackest black. Being consumed and brought into the void of a black hole's gravital pull.
It's a terrible feeling. A feeling of desperation to escape it. Can't tell you how many times I have thought to actively do something of permanence, of creating nothingness out of my existence.
I don't understand your experience with this, but I would like to. You deserve support and compassion. You deserve all good things. You might not see this but I do. You are special and have so much more ahead of you to create and accomplish.
I know this won't change your mind. Honestly, I wish it could. But I respect you and so respect your thoughts.
Just know that I am here for you and wish you were okay.