Hi everyone! I’m having a hard time talking to my prom date. It’s not just him every time I’m romantically involved with a guy I feel awkward and I want it to end. When I was 3/4 I was best friends with my dad we were inseparable! My dad is heavily religious and he’s a Jehovah's witness. When I was around 7 years old I didn’t want to go to that church every time I’d refuse he’d beat me with a metal spatula multiple times. I would sometimes go to bed hungry too. Now that I’m 17 he oversexualizes the hell out of me! I wore a skirt and he told me “I shouldn’t be going to school looking sexy.” He’d call me pretty sometimes, when I was younger he’d walk on me changing my clothes. He won’t even let me go to the college want to go to because I’m going to get kidnapped. Every time I tell my mom she defends him! I remember I was in a rush and my pants fell and parts of my butt were showing and he yelled at my mom because he saw my lace panties. She yelled at me saying I'm disgusting and I told her that I see his buttcrack all the time in his pajamas and she replied it doesn’t matter he’s your father and he’s the adult of the house. I find it so hard to talk to guys I like, and my prom date is becoming more distant because I’m not talking to him and I’m not opening up. I feel hopeless right now.
How to deal with trauma?
