Am I a traitor for this, I'm supposed to hate him, I really really like him instead?

StéphanieMar

He did nothing bad to me, I hated him and was supposed to still hate him because of his huge dispute with his ever since former best friends from high school, I met a few of them at the local gym and started hanging out with the entire group a couple of months after the dispute so they didn't talk to each other by then, this was 4 years ago and they didn't see him since

I never saw or knew him but heard them talk about him, stuff like "They created the dark triad because he was born" and "he needs an exorcism" lmao

2 weeks ago, we were at a Starbucks and a friend in the group said that he was here, another got excited and shouted "look who's here" and the moment he saw them he started giving them nicknames and calling them p***ies he even bragged about the stuff he was accused of lol

It seemed like he was right in that interaction, although I was told about stuff he did I thought he was just evil but he was giving reasons for everything and accused them of many things, from what I understood he did what he did as payback for they hurt someone that mattered to him

On the 16th, my mom had a work dinner, although from different branch his mom works for the same NGO, family can be invited, we were the only 2 in my age range with his sister and guy he befriended, my heart sank at first but he was so nice until after talking a bit he figured out who my friends are, turns out he hadn't recognized me, right then he told the guy and his sister to change seats with him, later the guy and his sister got up to dance he went to the buffet, didn't come back so I followed him 10 mins later

He was eating on the balcony and turned his back as he saw me, then I accidentally hit another person in a tight area of the buffet as I was focused on if I talk to him or not, our plates fell and the man started shouting and blaming me non stop, then he shows up and says "that's enough man she gets the point now f*** off", I try to calm him he tells me to stay out of it lmao

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When it was done he said no wonder I became a weakling by hanging out with that group, I replied by asking if he's ever normal or if his only function is to have fights with people, after some banter I apologized for putting him in that situation and the night went amazing from there, headlines:we danced a lot, we talked a lot about everything, I honestly felt like he opened up emotionally to me, he ended up kissing by the end of night and I still have his jacket, he didn't ask cor my number tho
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Does this mean anything? I don't know if I'll ever see him again, If I do will I have to choose between a guy I've seen once and friends I've spent time with for the last 4 years? If he doesn't could he use this against me if we're ever put in that Starbucks situation again, I wouldn't believe it tho, he was so nice and he told me so many personal things, he said I stole his eyes the moment I saw him and he feels like I'm going to steal his heart... Pftt I don't know anymore
Am I a traitor for this, I'm supposed to hate him, I really really like him instead?
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