I hate my dad I cry whenever im near him?

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He never treated me right i hate my life when i see his face or hear his voice i fricking hate him he has always made me cry and never understood me
Im 19 and i never EVER remember him treating right to me or my mom and worse im an only child and we live on the same house with him!
I've always felt so alone and worthless
I literally hate him why is he treating us like shit and never loved me? i can't fricking stand it anymore im on pills but i still hate lifr when i see his damn face. What can i do omg im sick of this shit
(i can't move out cause 1. Im afraid to leave my mom alone with him and 2. I can't afford to pay the rent im literally going nuts!)

Leapfrog00 · Answer

I'm sorry you have to go through that. I understand it's hard to move out because the economy is so bad right now, you would need 2 jobs just to make ends meet.

Is he abusive? Like narcissistic? or mentally? You are not worthless. Don't ever let someone put that idea in your head. Just because he says mean things to you, that doesn't make them true. Do you have any friends you can talk to? If not, I'm a good listener.

It sounds like you might be struggling a little with depression. The pills aren't going to help 100%. You need to vent also. Therapy, or a good friend to talk to, something to get those emotions out.

Don't ever think you're worthless. I just went through this myself and a really kindhearted girl on here said some really kind things to me and gave me encouragement. Maybe I can pay it forward.

When you wake up in the morning, say to yourself, "This day is for me! This is my day! And no one is going to take it from me! The sun shines for me today. Or if it's raining, those raindrops are watering the flowers that are growing for me."

Take a piece of paper and write down every good quality you have. It can anything from "I'm a nice person" to "I'm good at making eggs." Write as many items as possible. Keep the list with you, and when you're feeling like this, take it out and you'll see you are worth something!
I know it might sound cheesey, but at least give it a shot! You won't regret it!

I'm a good listener. I'm here if you want to talk :)

Rockstarrrrr · Answer

It's okay, Just let it out... You probably feel trapped and you can't believe how unfair it is that the person your life is dependent on is like that... Right now what you need is emotional support until you have enough energy and confidence and clear mind to do something game changing about your situation... I hope you have the right people for it...

Anonymous · Answer

Go out do work make money.. You are financially dependent on him  First get financial freedom

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