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How do I deal with my family not really liking me?

I'm kinda the black sheep in my family even though if I said that too them they'd deny it and say I was just attention seeking and we are the prefect family and all love each other very much.

I'm the polar opposite to them. They are very quiet people who don't like talking much or showing affection. They are very Introverted people.

Me on the other hand I'd call myself a repressed extrovert. I've always been super chatty, affectionate and bubbly but I'd be told I was loud, annoying, clingy, attention seeking cringey and that never shut up. My family are not bad people but all this made me think my personality was bad and made me lack a lot of the confidence I had and self doubt myself. I struggle with self doubt a lot I'd say it's my biggest struggle in life and something I really need to work on.

I constantly have people talk over me including family and I've started to believe no one wants to hear me speak so it's best to stay quiet.

Then I met my now husband and moved to a new town and started realising the way I was bought kinda wasn't normal and that I wasn't the problem i just hadn't found my people. Now I'm a social butterfly and have a lot going for me in my life right now.

Whenever I come home I'm so excited to see my family and tell them everything but I have a successful husband and I'm becoming successful myself but all I'm met with is jealousy and bitter comments. I amit I get very over excited and I can be abit much when I come home because I miss my family so much ill constantly be hugging them and trying to talk to them and make them laugh just to see if there happy but I'm home but they have there own life to tend to. They have there own jobs and partners to tend to and don't have time for me.

I think to myself why did I bother coming no ones care if I'm here but I love my family so much and miss them. They complain but I never call or visit and then when I do they moan about it

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Don't get me wrong I like my personal safe and quiet time and im still very shy around certain people and will avoid social interactions with people if I can and I hate making plans with people but my family hate that I talk a lot and love to cuddle and always have since I was a child.

I'm shy until I'm comfortable around people or feel confident. I'm the most extroverted out of my family but to normal people you'd probably think I was very socially awkward
How do I deal with my family not really liking me?
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