I want him so bad but I don't want him to know!

Miyani11
So I have a really nice guy friend and I like him. Before I just needed a friend in my life and I'm happy I have him in my life now, but now I'm starting to feel attraction towards him. Like when he comes in for a hug, I hug him for like a long time and sometimes a moan comes out. I try to hold it in though but it just comes out and I pretend to cough or something. He told me earlier that I hug him too long and I say that's how you're supposed to hug people. But I guess he doesn't notice the moans.

I want to go on a road trip with him too, just me and him, but he said there's probably going to be other people coming too so we don't do anything freaky. I think that's what he said but I couldn't hear him well so he said it was some kind of drink and that we should try it and I said OK lol.

We also work together and it gets super awkward at work because I think my boss likes me or has some kind of feelings for me and I think he thinks my friend is making a move on me. Like today, my friend told me he got a write up for something he wasn't trained on. So I told him we should like be incognito and just not talk to each other that much so we don't get each other in trouble or anything like that.

But I really like him. I want to just kiss him and sit in his lap or want him to take me to a wall or something and kiss me hard and then take me to the car or something and just find all my spots and make me moan...without sex lol. I don't want to have sex with him yet, not until I know him well enough. But I really just want to kiss and bite him because I want him so bad but I think he only sees me as his friend. Not fair!

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OMG you guys! The most amazing thing just happened to me today. So I took the initiative to hug my friend first this time in the car but instead of our goodbye hug, it was just a random hug because I miss him and want to touch him but it was like a bosom hug kinda. I was thinking he might be like "uh what are you doing?" but he totally wanted the hug. We stayed like that for like 20 min until he dropped me off at work. And then later he picked me up from work, we went to a lake and hugged again!
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He wanted me to wear my hair down so I wore it down and he smelled my hair and said I smell really good. So he kept hugging me. It felt nice to hug so I wanted to stay like that for a while. Then he was like kinda cold so I like warmed his hands and we grasped hands and I leaned my head on his shoulder and he leaned his on my head and then he was like, I think of you as more than a friend. And I told him I felt the same way and we kissed! Oh I was so happy! :D
I want him so bad but I don't want him to know!
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