I feel so hurt right now. Time and Time again I open my heart and let them in. So many people I give my friendship to so many and they take it for granted. They use me up and then put me down.
Seriously why can't anyone be a human? Literally at work I made "friends" with some people and it feels like anytime something good is happening to me they don't want it to. Like one girl I'm friends with I am so nice to her and when we first started working guys at work would hit on me and try to give me attention and she would be like hey, why are they giving you attention, why are they talking to you!!? I want them to talk to me. I'm gonna copy your style tomorrow so they can talk to me. And she is engaged and has a fiance. She's always bragging about him so why does she care if a guy is interested in me. Like WTH?
And one guy who was interested in both of us chose to talk to me and take me out and she became so jealous over it. Like why didn't he ask me , why? And I'm like well I don't know but you are engaged. And she's like yeah I know haha. Also when people at work compliment me and tell me I look so pretty or beautiful, she always gets mad. And starts telling me how pretty her friends are and how pretty random girls are etc. Like WTF? Also when she gets jealous of me she starts to joke with me but she's like low-key trying to diss me and make me look stupid.
Like, hey why are you so slow etc. And honestly I have done nothing but be kind to her. She's not the first person who acts like that around me. Other girls who I have treated like friends have done this type of thing too. And I only have like.1 or 2 people who are my friends who don't act this way. Sometimes I wonder if I've done anything wrong to deserve this type of treatment but I always try my best to not be a bad person. I just think I'm too young and naive for this world.
I probably have a lot more learning to do when it comes to dealing with people and how everyone is not genuine. Lots of people are fake, only looking for their own benefit. I don't like thinking this way but I guess I have to accept that not even around me who says their on my "team" are really for me. A couple of good words only go so far when all the other actions point in a different direction. Oh man at times I lose seeing the point in carrying on worth anything but I guess it's just a process of living and learning.
Anyways please don't hate in the comments. I was just here to vent, I've had a pretty sad day today because of a build up of a lot of bad events. And cried a lot. This is where I'm letting my feelings out. Thanks.