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Please tell me why it is not normal for me to think like this?

I want to see your opinion on why it is not normal, I like that people who do inappropriate things get away with showing that others are weak and inferior, there is a woman I would like to hit, insult and torture for interfering in a fact that I wanted it to be a certain way, she has a boyfriend and a woman tried to take him away from her and she fought with that woman and I won something that I did not like she had to lose the fight for wanting to defend what was hers I wanted them to flirt with her boyfriend, I like that they do what is forbidden and get away with it, what is forbidden would be to flirt with a man with a girlfriend or on the contrary, which I like and it should be like that, that same feisty woman months ago had done a show in public I don't know how it happened but I stabbed a man and a woman in a park I guess the reasons were jealousy or something like that, and I repeat things must have happened on the contrary the stabbed person must have been her, I would like to have her tied arms and legs and h To ask her questions, I want her to tell me why she acts that way and to tell me the justification for her actions to hit her in the face, then hit her with a cable, punch her all over her body, punish her for a long time with blows, and tell her the reason why I do that to her, after slitting her throat with a knife and letting her die slowly while looking into my eyes, I know this is not normal but just tell me why I should tolerate her doing those things and that I shouldn't do anything?

Please tell me why it is not normal for me to think like this?
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