What is wrong with me?

[Anonymous]

I'm going to be completely honest here. I hate myself for this and am absolutely disgusted by myself but I just can't help it.

I've always wanted to be groomed and abused? I don't know why but I just want to be mistreated, mishandled, and exploited.

Few days ago I found myself upset over the fact that since I was 18 now, most pedos wouldn't be interested in me. I'm sick. Why?

My childhood was pretty good too I think. My uncle was (and still is) weirdly touchy, but I don't think he did anything... bad? I feel bad for saying this but I'm not completely sure because I don't remember majority of my childhood.

[Pegases]

Often, our brains protect us from traumatic experiences by hiding the memory from us. It's common for people with traumatic experiences in childhood, to have few memories of their childhood for this reason. Next, its also common for a woman to enjoy being treated poorly when she unconsxiously believes she deosnt deserves better. Essentially, its very rare for a woman to positively receive treatment that doesn't align with how she already feels about herself. Therapy, is the only way to unpack the why behind what you're attracted to.

[scottishlass85]

It could just be a fetish. I had a hard time getting my head around my fettish. I won't use the actual word but as it can be triggering for some people, but basically saying no to sex and the other person taking it anyway. Now in no way would I want this to happend to me in real life. But with a trusting partner it's something I like to role play with, but took me till my 30's till I was comfortable with the fact it was just a fettish and that I wasn't sick in the head. My not so tabo fettish is being dominated and almost treated badly in the bedroom. Maybe you just like older men and want to be dominated. Don't let it get to you to much try not to over think it. And don't beat yourself up about it.

[Guy13]

Hopefully, you grow out of this. Do you have any childhood trauma or difficult memories. If so, you should go visit a psychologist. There's stuff from the past and the present that need to be worked through. Good luck with everything.

[Jamie05rhs]

There are people who that actually happened to, and it was absolutely horrifying. I would recommend talking to one of them sometime. It might change your perspective.

[jshm2]

It's just a fetish.

Move on with your life, kiddo.

[misogynistic_pig]

On PornHub, women consume most of the porn where women are violently raped and abused.

[Anonymous]

Therapist can help with your condition. Good luck

[Anonymous]

You should be talking to a therapist.