Trouble in paradise?

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So my fiance wanted me to go hiking with him and one of our coworkers they I was ok with the idea and agreed

But quickly realized I wasn't a fan of hiking with them

They are both in better health than me they were wearing shorts and tank tops I was wearing leggings and a long sleeve tshirt and I was the only one with a backpack because I decided to bring like water and stuff because I didn't know how long we would be gone and yah I can Carry more weight but I'm not great for long distance because my stamina is poor and I fucked up my ankles so many times that if I'm not careful how I step I'll roll them again

Don't get me wrong I can certainly walk at a normal pace without a problem.

But they were both speed walking up steap hills and so I was starting to get out of breath which is fine I don't care other than I don't like people hearing me breath heavy. We walked over 10 k

And any time I'd slow down for a second one or the other would slow down with me and fiddle with some plants or start walking around me or trying to carry my back pack for me which I would tell them to fuck off o can carry my own bag.

Or whichever hung back would say your walking slow

I honestly just wanted to scream "than fucking leave me here I don't give a fuck I don't need your help your pity or you running your mouth I will take my own damn trail and you fucks can sprint for all I care." But I didn't I'd say I'm fine just hot it didn't help that I know our coworker thinks that I hate her and I don't hate her she just isn't my bestie is all.

I honestly just wanted to be left alone them constantly dancing circles around me was a big hit to my pride I used to love hiking when I lived in the desert but I just hated myself and them the whole time and couldn't enjoy any of it

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I wanted to curl up and cry I ended up wondering off and went over to the cave at the beginning of the trail and just hid there for like 15 minutes because I needed a minute or I was going to cry and I didn't anyone knowing that I just felt like a hindrance and a looser I know my behavior is childish and pety BUT WHAT DO YOU THINK?
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