I feel like I look like a boy without makeup. Can I still have a boyfriend?

Newyorkgirl022

So I think taking adderall when I was a little girl messed up my self-esteem, or held me back from growing up properly. I remember when I was little, I liked boys. It wasn't until I was in junior high/high school I still liked guys but I would think they wouldn't like me w/o makeup. I mean I have boy-ish features, but what I really hate is my eyes have no definition. My eyelashes are straight, I think due to ethnicity, and I have circles under my eyes. So my eyes don't look feminine at all. But I look pretty feminine with makeup on. So due to my adderall giving me anxiety, I didn't date until my mid 20's.

2 of the guys I dated saw me without make up. & even though they weren't the best relationships/ guys. They still wanted me back after I broke up with them. But they would also mention that I'm not that attractive too. All I'm asking is that if I wasn't parented correctly when I was younger, should have I been gay?

I mean I don't feel gay, and I don't want to like girls. But I'm not the most most feminine girl either. But I think my adderral that caused me anxiety, just made me grow up different socially. So I'm just not sure what to do.

I feel like I look like a boy without makeup. Can I still have a boyfriend?
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