Last period I have felt a bit insecure.
Today I was looking for my future travel plans, and opened one of the old Social Media of mine that I haven’t used for 2 years.
I saw a letter on my profile timeline , from a man who fell for me during one of my trips when I was 24. I have never seen that letter and I didn’t even remember his name.
He used to send me letters to my hotel reception, the poetry he wrote for me.
But I have never seen that specific letter, it starts like this
“I met (my name) on a beautiful Wednesday night, September… (and the date). I was looking at the sunset when she walked by the beach with her friends. It was 07:00 pm.” And the letter goes on for about a whole page, describing me in a very nice way.
I remembered that I never paid him attention, as I was in a relationship, but knowing myself, I still wouldn’t pay much attention even if I wasn’t taken and he wasn’t the only man who was sending me letters. I never responded to any of those letters and I threw away most of them.
There was another guy, a photographer sending me letters through another person every evening by the beach and taking me photos and sending me the polaroid pics along with letters.
There was also a surfer singing me serenades,
And a composer who wrote a song about me right that summer.
And just so many more, countless occasions that will take too long to tell,
I remembered all of these things and I also remembered everything nice that had happened to me since then. I remembered thinking 26 was the craziest year I’ve had.
I also remembered I was proposed twice this year. And for a moment, I felt like I have been ungrateful.
Break up was a huge hit to my self esteem, cause I never imagined It would happen to me , then I realized that I have no reason to be insecure, I am fine the way I am, I have enjoyed lots of nice things and feeling insecure is same as feeling ungrateful for what life had given me.
