I am an alcoholic. I learnt this two years ago after I first began drinking, and could not stop. However, everyday I go to work, I go to university classes, I work out, and I live a very outwardly normal life. On the outside, I'm a stern man, however inside I am emotionally high one minute, and the next in an emotional hell, or worse purgatory because at least in hell it's deserved. Often there is a lot of stigma towards regular drinking, and that is understandable, my condition is associated with broken families, hearts, and dark street corners stinking of blood, and piss. But to shun people like me is not the answer, as it only makes it worse. Alcoholics usually have a reason for addiction, mine is an inferiority complex, and failed personal relationships.
People have told me in the past how bad it is for me, etc. I don't care, in fact most people with a dependency on alcohol know. I know that 2 drams of Scotch is good, and 14 drams is bad for me, however some days, that doesn't matter. Some days you'll come home feeling like a bag of hammers, because of how hard you worked, and the alcohol numbs the pain, both physical, and emotional. I'm not looking for sympathy, I'm looking for a way to take my mind away for the shortest amount of time, so I can stop thinking.
However, that logic only goes so far. Alcohol is a depressant, and too much of it makes you feel worse in the long run. I don't know what my future holds, but so far I am still a productive member of society, and that I will stay. Unfortunately for me, it'll take more willpower to stay the productive member of society I am, and protect myself from allowing the liquor to take over. The liquor does not control me, I control the liquor. I am not the liquor. 
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Well unless you want to have a wife and kids. Then maybe you should seek help and try to get better because your just hurting yourself at the end of the day and you could only stop yourself from doing that. My sis in law is married to an alcoholic and she's getting a divorce because he rather drinks and he thinks that she just leaving him just to leave him and not seeing that his drinking habits has pushed her away. He doesn't think that he has a prob and people dont want to invite him to places because he drinks to much that he gets sloppy or start talking out of his ass. So he drinks alone.
I'm just trying to help but if you want to keep drinking then go ahead I hope your ready when you go to the doctor and they tell you need to stop or your going to die.
Cheers.