I really messed up? :(?

badblondie
I am an idiot. I was staying at this hotel with a
few girl friends over the weekend. We all got
very drunk and I got into a fight with the girl
who got the room and she kicked me out. I
called this guy I like crying asking him to pick
me up because I didn't have my car. Him and
his friend drove 45 minutes to get me. I barely
know either of them, the guy I like is very quiet
and has not really shown much interest in
actually liking me when I see him. I drank more
in the car and the guy drove us to his house.
He left, went to bed and had his friend drive me home. This was the first time I met his friend. Well then all of a sudden me and his friend hooked up. I was wicked drunk and regretted it immediately. Now his friend acts obsessed with me and won't leave me alone. He claims he won't tell his friend but he's been getting mad at me for not reciprocating liking him back. I feel like he will tell the guy I like
eventually I'm not sure. But now the guy I like
has actually been showing interest in me and
texting me all the time finally. I don't know
what to do it was a huge mistake I barely remember the whole incident. Should I tell the
guy I like myself and have him hear it from me
first apologize and explain? I think in the
moment I really wanted it to be him (the guy I
like) but I was very drunk and also haven't had
sex in a year and this guy would not stop
talking about how he wanted to so it was the
perfect combination for a disaster. I really want
to fix this but I feel like the guy I like will never
talk to me again or give me a chance if I tell
him.
I really messed up? :(?
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