I seriously need a guys brain on this…. He got my number from work. I know I’m the spawn of satan and selfish, etc. I’m married also. My marriage has been a struggle and I know that’s why I gave in so easily. Missing the attention and not feeling like trash to someone. Marriage is better now but we really struggled. Anyway, we got heavy fast and talked every day for a week. Husband found out. We shut it down. 2 months later, it sparked again. We’ve texted 5 days a week, 8-5, for 7+ months now. We did meet and made out 5 months ago. But never sex. We flirt and some sext but it’s more of day to day “how are you” and “how can I help you have a better day” chat. Our company is HUGE on security so we have ZERO places to do anything. I’m not pushing for sex. Like you can’t undo that. And I do acknowledge we’re married. I’ve tried to let him go but I’m completely attached. He’s 22 years older. Thin and very attractive, to me. I don't know why he’s attracted to me as I’m probably a 6 at most. I’ve gone through many insecurities with him. Wondering who else he talks to or sees. There’s only 4 girls at work and he doesn’t talk to them (cleared that) so it would be online girls I guess. But that along with the fact we can’t talk outside of work and his job is very demanding; so at times hours pass without chat and it brings out my feeling of being unimportant. I’ve probably driven him crazy. I’m not quiet about my opinions. I’ve pointed out how when he’s busy it upsets me since I have such limited time anyway. I’ve been moody and bitchy. Like honestly, I would’ve left me months ago lol So why hasn’t he? I feel like he’s actually more confiding lately. But he says his biggest fear is losing his family (grown/married). So why is he still talking to me? Like I don’t make it easy. We don’t have sex. No obligation to stay. Can any guys make sense of this for me?
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To clarify, I mean our day to day chat consists of good morning and how are you, random shit, 2-3 times a week he will talk about what he wants to do to me sexually, we joke a TON, then have a good evening and bye. Like even yesterday he said he wants to see me again. I just guess I don’t understand when I drive him nuts with my sass and insecurities bc maybe he was busy and I got only 6 texts that day… that he doesn’t tell me to fuck off. Like does he feel sorry for me or am I a comfort for him
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Cause if I was just an ego boost, wouldn’t my silly girl shit just make his leave and stick to hot girls online?
Ok I’m done updating lol
Ok I’m done updating lol
