Guy's Behavior

Why? What does he want? he is 28? is he gone for good?

we were ok the first trip he was ok 8 months he came back home and after 2 months told me i should have done x, when he said he could be their for me and I didn't do it. 2 weeks later he dumped me via text telling me not to chase and beg but to respect him and I. i left a voice mail saying i accept your decision. every 2-3 days i would get some form of contact, 3 weeks later he said i want to try again. I told him he could come back only if he was ready to commit. he came back feb, left for work end march, seemed one foot in one foot out, never called me his girlfriend. told me he loves me. we saw one another for a few days end of April, he didn't seem at ease he said he loves me but like a sister after sleeping with me 4 hours earlier and i got upset, said if your hearts not here end it now, he said he wants to try. 2 weeks later

16/5 "I need to be forward with you and this is hard for me as I still love you more than you can imagine. I just am not getting the feelings on attraction nor of wanting to commit to you that would be fair for you to keep pursuing me. I think that we need to stop talking and trying to make things work as it is hurting you and making me feel guilty. There isn't anything that you are doing wrong, in fact you've been incredible and sweet, but I'm just not into it."

19/5" Happy birthday mia cara, I hope you have a good day of celebrations as you deserve to be celebrated. I am so proud of how much growth and personal development you have gone through as a woman. I know you will achieve all of your goals and god will reward your hard work, kindness, and compassion. Loving Regards, NAME."

5/6 i reached out:

me: "I miss you x" (he liked the message)

him: "i'm driving to STATE right now, perhaps we could speak on the phone at some point"

me: "That would be nice, safe travels to STATE x"

was i just used and led on? will he come back and if so... how do i get him to stop coming and going out of my life

Updates
11 mo
little context we were together for 1.5 years before his first work trip and he was headover heels for 2 years then there was the break up.
Why? What does he want? he is 28? is he gone for good?
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