Feeling horrible about myself?

[Tanya-marie]

i am 20 years old and have been suffering with an eating disorder since i was 14. i am bulimic and the thing is i am really scared of my future all i wanted was to be thin i can't go to the doctors because i am scared of what they are going to say i hate my self so much i just feel like giving up i dont feel i have anything left i dont know what to do any more is my future over

[BiffWebster]

look, insecurity is a big thing in this country. Especially with today's younger generation wanting to be "popular" more than anything.
Depression is the number one cause for all eating disorders... but you have to think about your own health. Throwing up will burn your throat and that is really really bad. Any doctor would tell you that... but what you should also know... is that counting your intake will also help. If you are capable of burning off more calories than you consume, you'll build muscle and lose fat.
I dont think your future is over... i just think you need to try harder for eating healthier. Eating healthy is not going to get you massively overweight right? Plenty of apples, banana's are nowhere close to fast food.

But if you can't really do this -_- then maybe anti depressants would help you. Because feeling insecure is a really terrible thing -_- and you end up destroying yourself in the process for people that probably don't care as much as you think they do. And that's the insane part about it. I mean its not worth it, sitting at home all day analyzing everything about yourself, and then throwing up what you eat... you should enjoy food and let it digest.

[AlexCab]

Insecurity is an industry: they make you feel and believe you're not good enough, or hot enough, or whatever enough. You're perfect the way you are hun. Instead of comparing yourself to an ideal of beauty... try comparing your actual self, to your wildest mental image of yourself. You don't need to live by the an "industrial" standard on beauty, just be yourself.

Don't over do it. Get help. Move on, keep on going.

[itsme_goodsamaritan]

I've not really experienced an eating disorder, so excuse me if my advice is a bit off, but will do my best...

I think ED is just a symptom of something much deeper. I feel in today's world there's too much negativity, and girls especially get affected easily as they are a sensitive lot.

There must be some other thing that is as addictive as food that can make you happy. I mean, it could be anything --- i don't want to prejudice ur opinion. Use that as a comfort activity to slowly replace the eating binges. Food is too precious to be wasted in eating binges and then vomiting it out. Ask for forgiveness. If possible, sponsor meals for a few homeless people. It'll give you strength and peace. Hope this helps :)

[Comfort_Zone]

Sweety you'll be alrigh trust me, so many people have suffered from such issue for years and with their strong will and support of beloved ones they got through it easily. Life is pretty, you're too young to just give up on the great things I believe you're able to do. Live your age, smile, love, be happy, forget, and give yourself what it deserves from living a good life. Good luck <3 . Be like what Rumi said :

"But listen to me. For one moment
quit being sad. Hear blessings
dropping their blossoms
around you."

^_____________^

[Tanya-marie]

aw thank u this really made me smile just reading it thank u so much xxxxxx

[Comfort_Zone]

<3 Be brave <3 . ;) .

[women-venusmen-mars]

what is it that triggered your eating disorder?
ask yourself do you really want to let this eating disorder beat you?

[Tanya-marie]

my brothers and friends always made fun of me i lost the weight then i lost control with food

[women-venusmen-mars]

im sure they feel fucking awful now... you lost the weight right so you know you are no longer fat if you were before. Now ask yourself do you want to look boney and are anorexic people attractive...
what is your favourite food? and can you eat it without making yourself sick after?
the only way to beat this is to get help
the first step is admitting you have a problem which you have done even if its just to a bunch of strangers
you can do it just bite the bullet and go and get help
leaving a problem dosnt make it go away does it... it gets worse
if you dont act soon it will get harder and harder to cure
have you tried calling a carecall service they could arrange a counsellor to see you?
eating disorders or a form of mental disorders and by changing the way you think you CAN beat this

[Tanya-marie]

thank u so much for helping me u really have i want u to know how grate full i am my mum is going with me to get some help i am really happy for every ones help xxx

[women-venusmen-mars]

you are so welcome ! i am so happy to hear that you've decided to get help! :) good luck xxx

[harrison102]

please dont think like that :( xx