ok so first of all why do you want to know?
well, last few months i felt really depressed. It just became to much to handle. so i really tried to make sense of things but i just couldn't. my thoughts just went back to the person that caused my depression. I needed a way to controll my emotions, so i talked to my doctor. he subsribed me anti depressants. they really helped , you feel numb, almost emotionless. you can't start to think more rational about everything that happened and is still going on. downside, you get extremely tired. if i take one i sleep all day. next to that i went to a psychotherapist. My ex girlfriend is a narciscist/ borderline individual. Not that she ever will get an official diagnoses, since she won't go to a psychotherapist. so talking to a psychotherapist helped me a lot. i got so many answers that i would never get before. My ex girlfriend is extrmely selfish and cruel. regardless of sharing a pregnancy and miscarriage i mean nothing to her, what happened means nothing to her. you can't reason with her let alone talk. i tried so hard and it wasn't possible. i was in love with someone that hated me, hated herself and hated the whole world. it makes no sense. so your life stops, because you try to make sense of it all. at work i couldnt concentrate. at home i just couldnt do anythign productive. i felt sad, empty and alone. i went from being a happy person to a lonely individual. I dont know if i could have managed without the anti depressants or the psycho therapist. but i also realize i have to do it myself. i need to go out there, meet new people, try to achieve my goals and find a girl who is truly worth the effort. someone who loves me back and isn't afraid of saying so. i do have moments , days were i wonder, if i would kill myself, would it all be over. but its not worth it, i still want to become a dad and a loving husband. i still can achieve that but i need to work on it. sitting back doing nothign takes me nowhere.00 Reply
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Anonymous(30-35)+1 yHello,
I was diagnosed with clinical depression at age 12. I was incarcerated (yes, that is how I see it) in a mental health hospital for teens the same day I was diagnosed. I was given my first dose of psychiatric medicine the first night. Around 30 minutes after the first pill, I hurt myself. Never had I injured myself on purpose in my life. I know the medicine I was given triggered my action.
I was kept on the same medicine, against my will, for 6 more years. The doctors and hospital therapists scared my parents into allowing me to take the medicine. I complained that the meds were in reality harming and that I needed to get off them. I'm not exaggerating when I say this: I was a genius when I was younger. After the meds I was a student of horrible grades. It wasn't because I was lazy, but because I could not think farther than a minute. I became even more depressed that I wasn't myself and the doctors threatened my parents with CPS if they didn't agree with their "treatment plan".
Last April 2014 I was incarcerated again in another mental health hospital at the age of 18... adult mental ward. I met a promising doctor (at first) who gave me Cymbalta, 60mg. I felt awesome! I felt better and smiled even more than before. However a month after leaving the hospital I turned for the worst. I couldn't sleep, anxiety attacks every night, gained a lot of weight, concentration again severely limited. Some nights I felt like a zombie, just living with no real purpose in life. Suicidal thoughts returned (these thoughts were created by my first meds, age 12).
The doctor who prescribed me Cymbalta even laughed in my face when I told her about the side effects. She compared them to my "wild imagination" and refused to decrease my dose. My parents, confused but scared of change, did not fight back.
But I did. I slowly withdrew from Cymbalta (DO NOT TAKE IT! IF YOU EVER WANT TO GET OFF OF IT, DON'T DO IT! IT'S A HELL OF A TRIAL!!)24 Reply
Opinion Owner+1 yI began exercising. I lost 35 pounds since my "fattest days". I went from 200 to 165. I began writing stories about war, current events, love and equality. My anger was controlled by these channels and I am glad I took the risk. I am better now!
I have a job as an op-ed writer for an new world news youth agency, I was able to work with a non-profit organization which helped war refugees in Syria. I am excelling in my college classes and will transfer to a 4-year as a junior with only 1 year of community college.
I laugh louder, smile bigger, think farther ahead. I pray and worship God, who has helped me in this journey. I have a best friend who is a girl. I'm taking it slow right now with her, because I really love her and her personality. (she's like the female version of me! :D )
Asker+1 yWow!! This was amazing!!! Thank you for sharing your story!!
Opinion Owner+1 yI have overcome it. I am proud and I am well.
How did I overcome it? I got myself off of the meds and decided to take charge. I exercised and kept myself busy. That is how you beat it. Those pills only bandage the scar.
Nature heals the wound. Think to yourself: "I am still alive for a reason. Should I really let depression guide me to the darkness of suicide or enhanced anxiety? Or should I reclaim my own mind, my own body?"
You can do the latter with faith and help. A support system is just as well.
God bless your lives,
Anonymous
Opinion Owner+1 yYou're very welcome. I hope it can help you. :)
347 opinions shared on Health & Fitness topic. I kept battling it, almost denying that I had a mental health condition but when I started having panic attacks frequently for no real reason (I wasn't even sure they were that, I kept denying it), I knew that I definitely had a neurological problem and that it was getting out of my control so I was kind of pushed by my mum to go to the doctor and I was put on Citalopram to deal with the depression and anxiety.
I haven't had a panic attack since I went on, though I do have anxious moments. My depression has been more manageable, but again, I still have bouts of severe depression and suicidal thoughts but they can only last for a few hours, especially if I'm late taking my tablets. I still regularly think about how I would commit suicide if I wanted to, those tablets don't stop everything.
I believe, when my life becomes a little easier (finish college, deal with heartbreak, get a good job), I will try to come off the Citalopram gradually and try again without medication but just thinking about that makes me anxious! I don't want to go back to how I felt and that anxiety could cause a panic attack. It's a hard cycle to break. :
I will try to get through it though, it just doesn't help having people say "there's nothing to be sad about", "you're attention seeking" etc. People can be so ignorant and cruel.00 Reply
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+1 yNot yet I have not. I am still working on it. I have Bipolar Disorder so I have my highs and lows in my moods. I try to take my meds everyday, but I sometimes fall off the bandwagon. I also go to private therapy sessions, but I am also in a DBT (Dialectical Behavioral Therapy) group. I also try to hang out with my friends as much as possible and involve myself in different activities at school to keep myself busy so I don't just sit at home with myself and my thoughts. Being alone has only caused a lot of self-destruction. I do a lot of things that I enjoy such as singing. I listen to music as much as I can. It's not easy, but it's what I have to do to keep surviving.
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Asker+1 yWow!! I respect you so much!! What motivates you to keep going even when it's hard and what is DBT? What do actually do?
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https://behavioraltech.org/resources/whatisdbt.cfm
That link will describe to you exactly what DBT is about. It's been really helpful for me. Thank you so much! I still struggle all the time to keep moving and it's not always easy getting out of bed, but I have an amazing support system. Yes, my family keeps me going, but truly it's my friends that keep me from falling apart at the seams. I have been through a lot of tragedy and have been hurt so many times. A lot of my future plans at one point got screwed up after I had to leave school for a month and go to the clinic. My first two years of high school were spent with me sitting alone in my house shutting everyone out. I finally lost it to the point that I didn't feel like life was worth it. Many times I still feel that way, but I know that I have to let go of the past. I remember that if it weren't for the past, my present wouldn't be nearly as great as it is right now. I have the best friends I could ever ask for and more opportunities than I could ever imagine I'd have before. - +1 y
That is what keeps me going. My friends, my family and all of the things that I have worked so hard to achieve. I still have trouble taking my meds. Hell, I still have trouble taking a shower and getting myself clean. Yes, it's gross, but I don't shower as often as I should or much at all. I'm working on it, though. I don't love life just yet, but I'm finally starting to like it.
Asker+1 yi love your attitude!!! Being grateful for things we have is very important to help us with this journey called life. I am glad you have a great support system 😀 and DBT sounds amazing!! Thank you for the link 😀. How have you changed since DBT?
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It took me a while to get that attitude. DBT has helped me to realize that I am not my illness. I am much more than that. It's helped me to see that, yes, my future may not be exactly as I planned but it doesn't mean that it won't be just as fulfilling. I'm finally starting to take more responsibility for myself. I always been able to own up to when I'm wrong, but I've had a hard time learning to rely on myself and not others so much. I'm an independent person, but in a different ways. I'm learning to accept situations as they are and that I can't always get my way or change things. I've had a lot of setbacks this year, but I've learned that they won't hold me back forever. I've learned to accept myself better. It really is amazing how much DBT has helped me to mature. Without it, I'd still be lost with no path or direction that would lead me to who I'm supposed to be.
Asker+1 yWow!! That's amazing!!! DBT really sounds like it has helped I can see how you have improved on your outlook 😀 I am truly happy for you and I hope it continues to get better for you.
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Thank you. DBT really is wonderful. I recommend it to anyone that is having trouble finding themselves like I have.
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+1 yI just learned to deal with it. The most important thing for me is sleep, followed by good food and good exercise. I just realised eventually that my depression will come and go, and when it does I know how to handle it (sleep, rest, take it easy, make sure I have time to myself) because I've done it all before and been fine. I have had suicidal thoughts but that doesn't happen anymore, like I said I acknowledge that it comes and goes and that I'll be fine. It will never go away completely, just do what you can to prevent it and deal with it.
I would never take meds though. A lot of them have bad side effects, and you don't want to be reliant on drugs anyway, it's always better to deal with it naturally.10 ReplyI had a close relative diagnosed with clinical depression. She responded well to a combination of meds and therapy. She is very content now. Just finding out she was not alone was of great help by its self. Like everyone she has her good and bad days but the cloud has lifted.
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Asker+1 yOh wow!!! How long has she been depressed?
Asker+1 yOh okay post natal depression, so it took 10 years for her to get better?
Asker+1 yWell they say that once you hit rock bottom it's essential to want help and. Or be stubborn. Kudos to your aunt for not giving up
+1 yKept it at bay yes.
Sorry I don't want to go into too many details but basically I had to acknowledge that I was depressed and learn to recognize the signs of it coming on. I opted not to go onto medication even though my doctor recommended it.
For me I learned to deal with it with exercise, sunlight, sleep, church, music... different outlets. I also feel like you have to constantly be on guard for it returning. Try to avoid situations and people who you know trigger it.10 ReplyThere is nothing worse, then going through hell of depression. You wake up each day, not knowing if you will make it
'till night, or you will simply give in, and end it all yourself. The drugs sometimes help, and sometimes make it worse.
Felt like I had no control whatsoever over my own life. It took me a while, but I managed to teach myself how to push trough the day, and keep on fighting.
In the end, it all comes down to helping yourself get up and fight, because without that no one can truly help you, no matter how much they would want to.
To conclude, help yourself, so you could go out into the world, and start truly living, and that will be a cure on it's own.
For anyone suffering from depression,
I recommend something that has helped me a lot. It is James Gordon’s system at lookingupstuff. com/mentalhealth/2015/02/06/how-to-destroy-depression/
He is a former depression sufferer, and teaches a totally natural 7 step process which relieves depression from your life.00 Reply
+1 ya lot of these comments aren't Clinical Depression. I have mild Depression; so I don't know how it feels to have it in a severe way, I was turned down by seeing a physchologist. It's true that it gets worst before it gets better. My Depression is slowly dissappearing. For any person who has any form of low, mild or severe Depression I 100% reccomend that you try the app Talklife.
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+1 yI can say I overcame it. I was on Zoloft, it went wrong and I was given two choices, get my shit together or institution.
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Asker+1 yWere you suicidal?
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Yeah, I had every single secondary effect that damn pill could give you.
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+1 yI did, I actually wrote a myTake on it if you wanna check it out. I was in an abusive relationship.
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Asker+1 yThank you!! I will check it out.
Anonymous(25-29)+1 yNever really figured it out, but accepting it and working with it seemed to help a bit for me.
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Asker+1 yHow long have u been depressed?
Opinion Owner+1 yI was diagnosed about eight years ago, but I thought I was before then.
Asker+1 yWow!! Impressive!! I respect u so much for your perseverance. by the way what do u mean by accepting your depression? How did you accept it?
Opinion Owner+1 yKnowing that it's a part of me, and that I won't be able to get rid of it but at the same time not letting it influence me as much as I can help it. I accept it because I don't want anyone else to go through it, so I'm dedicating my life to improving others lives. That's my motivation.
Asker+1 yYou are so young yet you are far beyond your years!! I wish you the best of luck and I wanted to share something with you
I find this guy to be an inspiration
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=kXzKXlijnSI
Opinion Owner+1 yThank you for the kind comment, I hope you're not feeling bad yourself and wish you the best of luck. I'll check the video out in a minute :)
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