Anyone suffered from anorexia?

[Anonymous]

I think i suffer from anorexia although im not sure. Just wandered what you did when you had it? What sort of eating habbits did you have? Thanks for any help.

[annijaeger]

My anorexia started when I was thirteen. I was a little overweight for my age and believed that if I were fat, the cute guy I liked wouldn't want to go out with me.

I began slowly restricting my calorie and food intake. I'm a competitive swimmer so at that age, I went from 4 sessions a week to 8 X 2 hours swimming sessions a week. And whilst I was doing all the training, I nibbled on spinach leaves and ice. I learnt how to suppress hunger and how to use laxatives. I also learnt how to stick my fingers down my throat and force myself to throw up when I'd eaten too much food.

At 35kg, I became afraid to gain weight. I also became afraid of social situations where I would have to eat in front of others, looking in the mirror and looking my parents in the eye after they found out what I was doing to myself.
My school and swimming friends and people's parents found out and began urging me to eat and I felt like they had all turned against me and were trying to make me fat.

The guy I used to like found out that I was anorexic and I was so embarrassed.

I couldn't think properly in class and I went from top of the grade in my subjects to the lower of my class. I followed so many fitness accounts on Instagram.
I lost my period. My period stopped for two years.

Eventually, I accepted that something had to be done about my anorexia so I looked up the symptoms and slowly gained weight and muscle.
Now, I still have problems with starving myself, purging and binging. So yeah. Anorexia does a world of damage.

PS. You wouldn't be able to tell if I had been anorexic today unless you look at my almost skeletal wrists and cheekbones :)

[Asker]

Thank you so much for answering! I send positive vibes your way, on your journey to recovery!

[annijaeger]

That's okay, thank you

[Anonymous]

I would restrict my calories and food intake. I wouldn't eat for most of the day and then ate more at night, but still not enough. Weighed myself every day. I was obsessed with watching the number go down. I would feel guilty for eating or what I thought was over-eating. I had certain "safe" foods that I returned to consistently when I was really hungry. I would refuse food that I really liked, eat as little as possible around family and make excuses for why I wasn't eating certain things or not eating very much. I had horrible body image, probably body dysmorphia - I just saw fat when I looked in the mirror.
After about a year it turned into a restricting/binging cycle. I could never bring myself to purge, though I tried several times. But I'd go from starving myself to binging on foods later at night.

I'm still recovering and trying to get better. But please, if you think you have an eating disorder or body image issues, seek help.

[Opinion Owner]

I'm sending lots of love and positive energy your way :) You can overcome this! You deserve happiness. <3

[Anonymous]

I am anorexic. I drink butt loads of water and black coffee to fill the cracks whenever I'm hungry. I have a bowl of homemade potato soup every morning that's really low calorie and very filling and for dinner (no lunch) I have 1/3 block of tofu with some avocado and tomato or some cut up carrots/peppers. The tofu dish is really only when I want something different but is a rare occurrence tbh. Thinking about cutting it out entirely and just sticking to the soup for breakfast and vegetables for dinner with a single banana for dessert if I feel I need it.

So far as exercise I do cardio and resistance at least three times a week.

by the way it's obvious you're a wannarexic and its fucked up of you to desire a crippling disease. Have fun playing Russian roulette with your life just to lose a couple pounds while the people actually dealings with the illness are in extreme terror and pain 24-7

[JustinCaseUDontKnow]

Even thou i am big when i was teen
i had a eating disorder and was near anorexia
or whatever they call it in males must be the same
not too sure but to this day i have stomach problems.

[sweetsinner]

I've had few episodes of anorexia and bulimia. Sometimes I would only eat like 500 calories max for a few days until the weekend came along and then I would indulge my cravings and binge eat then feel guilty and purge. Id skip school Mondays cause I could still "feel" fat from the weekend. My mom took me to see a therapist about it. It was getting in the way of my education. It turns out I had a distorted body image. I had low self esteem and was very self conscious and insecure. As a result I stopped going to parties and hanging out, and developed social anxiety. It's still in a process but It's a lot better now

[Asker]

That is exactly what I do, apart from I don't skip college. I think I have distorted body image as everyone say s how much of a beautiful figure I have, but I look in the mirror and all I see is fat! its making me extremely self conscious and depressed :(

[sweetsinner]

We are our worst critics 😔 my shrink told me that you just gotta start making a habit of positive thinking. All we do is focus on all the "flaws" and how Negative they are, each time we do we begin to think its worse and worse each time. She told me to write out all the positive things about me and say them out loud and smile everytime I do. It took a week until I really started to believe it. It's pretty easy to trick your mind. Another thing is that nobody actually cares about those physical traits as much as you do. And even if they did concentrate only about how bad you look that one day, that just shows how pathetic and shitty their life is because their life revolves around on what you look like and they have nothing more interesting in their life. Just remember that no one really cares lol also I'm not a doctor or anything but smoking weed helped a lot too

[Asker]

Thank you so much! You've really helped shed some light! ❤️

[sweetsinner]

You're welcome, glad I could help 😀

[Jxpxtxr]

I've developed "purge anorexia" when I was 13 - I would eat normally (not usually binge as bulimics do) and then throw it all up afterwards. In addition to that I would also work-out for at least 1 hour every day, I ended up being tube fed at the hospital after taking approx 80 pills of laxatives at 42kg (I'm 5'9"), I'm now 19 and recovering but still struggle enormously with food, my period is still very irregular and I have problems with my nervous system (low blood pressure) and metabolism (way lower than it should be). I was just crazily obsessed with food, I love food and I never loved it more than when I was anorexic but I still find it incredibly hard to admit that. - I hope for you that you're never going to be as ill as I was because anorexia is seriously an illness I wouldn't even wish upon my worst enemies..

[Lissy967]

I don't think you'll be able to know if you possibly suffer from anorexia if others tell you about their behaviours. There are different types of anorexia.

This site may help:
www.helpguide.org/.../anorexia-nervosa.htm

Stay safe and please seek help!

[Klaatu51]

my mom thought i was anorexic although she was wrong in my opinion. i stopped once i hit BMI 18... and i wanted 2 keep it dat way 8)

[Anonymous]

I had it for 2 1/2 years it was hard to recover from
Signs u have anorexia
Feeling fat
Constant comparing of youse to others
Weighing ur self a lot
Counting calories
Being upset when u go over a certain amount of calories
Over exercising
Eating little food
This is not all but main ones

[Anonymous]

Yes. I use to try and hide my food to make it seem like I was eating.