It isn't going to plan like it should have?

[Anonymous]

SO let me throw this out there, when I was 17 and about to graduate high school my father died of cancer, on my prom night, and I had to leave the dance and my date there to see him before he passed. after that she wouldn't talk to me at all, I figured because she was scared and didn't know what to do with a person like that so I've moved on since. then after that happened I graduated high school and tried to attend college. people told me I should have waited because I was a nervous wreck but I went any way. about a month or 2 into it I dropped out and its been like 5 years. I have no clue as to what I am going to do or any thing. I still live at home and I feel that if I met a girl and she heard that I am a college drop out who still lives at home with out knowing my back story she is just going to move on. I don't want a pity party I just want to be noticed, all those events f***ed with my head for a very long time. I have no true intention of going back to college, I just can't concentrate or grasp any material at all. wtf am I to do? I want out of my dead end job, but I have no where else to go. its seems that my friends are moving on with their lives but I have no motivation to want to do any thing. I don't have health insurance so I can't afford depression meds and I hate being on them I'm no the same person, I can't qualify for state aids and wouldn't want to because I would end up trying to live off of that and screw that kinda life. I have no clue where I am taking my life to. please help some advice or something.

[heroine88]

why is this under flirting lol?

anyways I just wanted to say that it sounds like you've had a rough few years. and even if you don't know what to do yet, the fact that you are ready to move on with your life says a lot!

so just try looking up job ideas online and talk to people, get your family to try and network for you.

[Asker]

Haha ya sry for putting it under flirting I figured it wouldn't even be read in the other category lol. but my family kinda fell apart after my dad passed and I've been looking online for job ideas and nothing seems to interest me or it requires about 4-7 years of school and no thanks. and the other stuff requires me to leave the state I'm in because not meny jobs are really available here any way. and I don't want to leave the family and friends I have left behind :(

[heroine88]

Yeah that's tough.

i think that the police officer or fire fighter was a good idea. I'm not sure if you need college for that in the u.s. though.

[Asker]

Sadley you kinda do, plus my father was a cop and he asked me to never become one, so I promised him I wouldnt. and you need to have paramedic training to become a firefighter as well

[Seannn]

well you can always join the army?, since you guys are like operating in 2 countries guess your army needs all the men it can get

[Asker]

Army is not an option, my father and his father and so on did similar work and they made me promise not to do it ever.

[Seannn]

Or you can try to join the police or firefighters, you'l be doing something good then, but yea, I don't even live there so I don't know what kinds of jobs you can get etc